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Thursday, August 28, 2003
again i am soooo tired?!?
oh well
hope this week can go pass faster
but the lava lamp very nice!
thanks henky and kelvin!!!
the thing bobbing up and down
so chio
hahaha
but now i am in the dark
with that illuminating hehe
ahhhh
at least i dun feel that terrible!
=o)
11:40 PM |
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oh okie
finally it is thursday morning
and yeah!
things are turning out fine
to all my dears out there
BREATHE YEAH?
it would be fine somehow
the sun is still rising every morning!
u will be fine
ray, listen to the song by live "heaven"
hopefully it will cheer u up alittle!
a great song to believe in things u have chosen to believe
u will be jsut fine!!
*hugz*
12:36 AM |
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Wednesday, August 27, 2003
wat a day
okie
so bz and tired
finally tomolo can get to study in school
good
to finish 2 modules stuff
and then i am the happiest person liao!
die
think i better do FPS hw tomolo too
DIE
11:36 PM |
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Tuesday, August 26, 2003
tired and tired
i swam slightly more than 1km within 35-40 mins
no wonder i am so tired
just remember i wrote a poem ages ago and left it in my hp
no title to it...also cant be bothered to think of one now
enjoy
along along sitting next to it
pushing pushing, against the rock wall
cruising cruising as it drives ahead
listen listen as it speaks to u
how gentle, how soft, how peaceful
short and sweet
afterall a sms msg cant be more than 160 alphabets!
10:03 PM |
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yet again
qouting from alwyn
"we have to be tolerant at times.
not everything will turn out and be the way we want them to be.
the idea is to be focused on your goal, have some form of motivation,
look forward to accomplishing somethg at the end of it all,
and u will see the light."
great one dear...
i totally agree
but then again
i guess somethhings in this life of urs
just dun allow certain things to happen
yet u cant pinpt wat it is so u try and try and try
soemtimes i guess life is good in a way
maybe this moment
some1 out there is thinking of me...
something out there is going to happen becoz of me
but maybe
in the end
i should stop thinking wat is going to happen to me
and go
wat are the things that i am going to make they happen?
things come and go
like the wind, carrying the sand
to nowhere it belongs
to somewhere where it would stop
no place is a perfect place
the wind picks up again
and there it goes searching again
dunno, suddenly of all the zest and energy for school and my chalet
i suddenly felt so tired
sick of alot of things
but i dun think i would allow "depression" to set in again
and i doubt it is anyway
maybe i need a bit of pat on my shoulders
maybe i just need a push
maybe
i dun need anything
just some comfort from my own reassurances
reading her world today,
while d/ling my patches
a weird sensation came over me
it was really weird
and very eerie
but i dun care abt it
drove home again, and i guess it would be the last time i did
i love the feeling of driving at nite, on an empty road
it is nice, and was listening to all nite jazz,
it was fantastic
i wanna to drive on to the end of the expressway, and never turn back
but i know, there is home i have to go back to
but i did promise myself
something i would do b4 i enter earth
is
step out and
breathe the world
see the world
feel the world
and
be the world
i wonder if i can do it
as the 1st qoute said
u need some motivation
yeah
i need that miracle of motivation
hahaha
CHEERS
12:15 AM |
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Sunday, August 24, 2003
wat a weird day
oh well
i still miss some1 badly
hahahahha
crappy la
wat the heck
missing some1 isnt a crime
but missing some1 u never wanna to,
is a crime of one's heart and mind
it is more or less a betrayal
once committed, and u cant turn back
it is sending some1 to the gallows
the gallow is set up, bit by bit,
by ur own hands
blame no 1!
12:42 AM |
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Saturday, August 23, 2003
a cup of milo
searching for a tranquiliser, just for that piece
beads of perspiration trickled
rapid typing on the keyboard
the heart pounded against the thin ribs
looking for a solution, understanding nothing
a problem left unsolved,
the puzzle fell apart
the riddle stood right on the fiddle
no music sound that loud
the tired body searches on,
for that piece of tranquiliser
it yearns for a craving
that knows nothing about crave
a daily routine, a surreal habit
reaching out for the 2nd cup of milo
the light still shines on,
whilst the eyes is blinded by fatigue
brown, thick liquid
slurping, sipping
stirring to a homogenenuity
its taste is everlasting
lingering around the buds
blossoming to heavens
that is the tranquiliser
i gunned down my 2nd cup of milo,
thinking too much caffeine has made me feel irksome
i think, i am getting old, the frail body cant take that much of cafferine
i fear i would really jump off that tall building!
1:09 AM |
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it is a damn fucking world
wat the fuck
i cant believe it
my IE has screwed up again
FUCK
i think i need to reinstall again
FUCK
wat the heck?
and i think the moment i reinstall
i get the worm again???????????????
sigh
oh well it seems like a small thing right?
but damn it
it made my life a wreck now
okie fine it is dead i am alive
i will conquer it
but it is soooo irritating.
more irritating than my tut
tutorials i still can solve
but this windows system,
has caused a permanent problem in my daily life
next time
i will get a mac instead
crappy
12:08 AM |
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Friday, August 22, 2003
somehow
i miss something terrible
it is rather excruciating to miss something that terribly
i had it
then i lost it
no wonder it hurts so much
it pains to the nerves
hmmmmmm
it isnt emptiness i realised
it is a space
occupied and got unrooted
hmmmm
12:07 AM |
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Thursday, August 21, 2003
caught the last episode of CHEMISTRY
oh well
wat an interesting way to put fate does it?
everything changes fate
fate changes everything
do u allow fate to control ur destiny?
or allow ur destiny make ur fate?
was in school today
met up with jc classmates
saw a few juniors and seniors
i feel weird again
alot went into me
sometimes, life is abt living it to the fullest,
coz u never know when it would end, or when u will lose something so dear
but i dunno abt that now,
wat i am concerned is
how oneself is to take his/her happiness into control
or rather allow it to flow in and out?
but then again,
is it all about happiness?
ur own happiness?
if u r happy, i guess it is good to the world isnt it?
i have no idea u know
was telling jo something,
and it struck me y am i always thinking of matchmaking some1?
forcing things down their throat?
or actually nudging them abit, acting like the catalyst, so to speak
i dunno
i never ensure things turn out fine
i just thot it was an inspiration isnt it?
but then
i always said
it is still up to the both of them to make things work
but i am no cupid aint i?
hahaha
wat a dreamer i may have been
from then till now,
every chance upon meeting
inserted a new feeling
but that only revoked the old intuition
unexpected timing, most surprised
it is then just a matter of time
a matter of luck
a matter of the human touch
11:33 PM |
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even
sometimes
even in the deepest darkness
even in the greatest secret
even in the strongest belief
even in the utmost trust
there always lies a tint of blindness
a touch of unhappines
a flash of disbelief
a word, just a word of lie
how to say, and how to portray
in that line of communication
wat is lost in the bubble of understanding?
questioning self
questioning the heavens
do i love u?
does it matter so much?
does it show that i care?
the stronger the desire
the stronger i crave
and the stronger i want to hold tightly
till i crush u in my hands
in such a desert of sand
footprints buried under dunes
there is no way to follow
there is no path to lead
even when light shines on
it is only sand everywhere
in search for the perfect
left a home of shelter
with all energy spent on train
stops made in sequence
the heart only flew to the place
it never wanted to leave
how to search
how to keep that open heart
when there is only space
that only place created
for u
"never meant to be" is only for the weak
"it is just fate" is only for the lazy
but coz every universe lies parallel
time zones bent into an abyss
maybe i have had enuff
maybe i just couldnt face and resist
the perfect u,
that i saw infinitely
1:46 AM |
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Wednesday, August 20, 2003
caught the league of extraordinary gentlemen!!!
it was great!!!!
hahah
all the pple involved and even
DORIAN GRAY WAS IN?
haha..
the guy who feared to lose his youth
oh well
who wants to anyway?
and wat a pathetic way to die
by looking at his own painting
hahaha
oh well
it was great action and interesting settings
love it in a way but the 1st fighting scene was abit messy
got meself in a headache?
hehehe
great thing
but then again
i am doing my tut...
hahaha
shhhh
tomolo i will be a shopholic!
who cares?
it is my life
my money!
and so much of wanting to get a rich bf?
who is pleasant looking
who has all in the world?
HA!
AS IF
if all women in this world are waiting..
i wonder who are the lucky few
lucky or not....
it is up to fate and heavens!
hahahahahhahahaha
*winkz*
and take care hian kai!!!
hope to see ya well and all ah!!!!
11:20 PM |
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managed to watch Hero(drama serial)
and wizard of oz
hahaha
cute
oh well
nothing much to comment
coz my brain is pretty dead now
been driving to school everyday
and tian ah
TIRED!!!!!!!
okie brain is shutting off again
i think there are alot of things i need to do
i just dunno wat they are
tian ah
12:31 AM |
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Monday, August 18, 2003
driving was great today!
and today
i had a mini gathering with my SA1 classmates
it is interesting
it seems we were once back to ACJC
hahaha
those were the days arent they?
but it is fine and fun
still great!!!
i dunno
thinking alot these days esp watever my sister and i have discussed
yesterday?
dunno things have settled down alittle more
but then alot of things have never settled
hehehe
oh well
watever it is
*shrugs*
11:57 PM |
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finally got my blogger working fine
and today i just something nerve racking!!!!
i drove my dad's car from home(west) to marina parade
then to airport to drop them
then back home!!!!!
GOSH
it was kinda bad
i havent driven for a long long time
but it was nice getting back to marina parade
my parents used to bring me there when i was young
think it was becoz of yohan(i forgot how to spell)
and now the shopping centre is very nicely renovated and
gosh the crowd is really scaring?!?!?
just like jurong pt!!!
my gosh!
i guess it is making me nostalgic
thinking back those childhood days,
excited taking the car all the way to marina parade and go shopping!
with parents...coz we hardly spend time together
eating out at the nice nice hawker centre
u know,
everything just came flowing back
i have short term memory these days
yet i remembered the timsum stall
hahahaha
am i not getting old?
but i have to brace later
going to drive to school
on my own
gosh
after 2 yrs of having that license
this is the 1st time i have the car on my own
gosh
good luck and
*taking a deep breath!*
1:54 AM |
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Sunday, August 17, 2003
a greatest joke ever
and of coz,
it has yet proven the saying to be so right
yeah
another feather to its cap!
dun judge the book by its cover
dun be deceived by my smile
that smile which flashes across my face
with the sweetness bursting out of my mouth
dun be deceived
i am innocent?
i am sweet?
i am demure?
that is not me!
hahahahaha
i can be..but definitely....
hahaha...only once in a darn blue moon!
*winkz*
gosh
i just cant believe it...
hahahah...
goodness...my smile can charm pple
hahha...it is a CURSE
it is ur JINX!!!
muahahah
but then again
a smile does wonders u know
i always think a smile goes a long way
smile and the world smiles with u
so heck if some1 comments too much abt ur smile
as long it brings happiness..
smile more k?
even to urself in the mirror when u feel terribly down
it does help alot
if not,
hugs from frens and family seem good too!!!
*smilez and hugz*
2:24 AM |
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really weird stuff but then again
i dunno
just recalled i posted the q on fate
and today,
wah lau
yeah it sort of hit again?
in a week,
i met 3 person twice in a row?
all unarranged
just met along the streets?
also, i met the german exchange student guy
i've got to know thru my fren in NUS on the streets..not bad
he recognised me..
which brought me to the pt
this is freaky, i hardly meet pple i know on the streets
usually, it is just once in a blue moon
to meet some1 in school is kinda hard
let alone meeting on the streets
but then again, it was orchard road
EVERY1 goes there anyway
and yeah,
some1 wasnt the pretext of my shopping trip in town
and i din know u said that till my fren pted out to me?
sheesh,
i guess i cant be bother to explain my presence in town?
FOR WAT?...
*shakes head*
some1's ego very big siah?
if meeting on the streets is prearranged
i must be an angel from the heavens
who can control such unprecedented meetings
i think, i am truly a fantastic chance maker!
*tink*
*halo sitting nicely above my head*
all i can say abt fate is
the more u wanna see the person,
he/she just DUN appear in front of u
and yet at the most unexpected place and time
he/she appears in ur face, w/o u on ur guard?
so who cares?
sit back and relax
enjoy the process of getting surprised?!
heck thinking wat fate can bring u?
just let it flow...
oh yeah,
let it flow.....
12:05 AM |
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Saturday, August 16, 2003
okie finally get things going
and freaking out with my blog being a blank page
another discussion topic!!..i wanna more pple
diff kind too to answer
wat is fate?
do u believe in fate?
can u see fate as something that keeps ur life in tag?
yeah
i think cosmic fate
could be a dumb thing afterall!!
hahaha
how could something befall into this world?
if all things were not meant to be?
let the river flows
allow the mountains to run high
with every turn, a road leading to nowhere
yet trees lined up in a single file
when an escape is attempted
a square is always a square
and
fate strings everything
everything leads to fate
crappy, think it is too late for some crappy typing
zzZZZzzzzZZZZzzz
3:55 AM |
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somehow i dunno wat went wrong with my blog
i cant view it at all
and i have so much things going thru my head
i hate things to be so weird now
it is another nite with insufficient brain cells working properly
i think i need to take a pillow and scream into it!
ARRGGGHHHH
so much things running in my head
i am losing grip again
sigh
luckily,so lucky that i am still __________
coz sometimes..i dun seem to be able to understand how pple
can tahan my _______________
hahahahha....
really...
i am really a freak at times...
*faints*
hehehe
can i just dance my nite away
i dun care if any1 is watching me
i just wanna to dance it away
just dance
yeah
just dance
and finally solved the case of the blank blog!!
it is my comment board..
goodness
sigh
2:05 AM |
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Friday, August 15, 2003
mistakes
dun let it happen on me
dun push it onto me
i cant breathe
y dun u just understand how i feel
y cant u just see how confused i am?
all i yearn is care concern
and i only got advice
mistakes committed everywhere
everyday, i pray i can erase all of them
it stained too much of my life
i just cant remove them at all
no 1 wants to forgive
no 1 seems to forget
how do i face myself?
how do i face tomolo?
i am not perfect
stop asking me to be one
i just wanna to scream it out loud
set me free
free from all mistakes i have committed
free from all regrets that i have in life
thank u for making the mistakes for me
and making them mine
thank u for leaving the mess to me
for i am already beaten, to pick up the pieces
that u have left behind
OH!
how i hate u for making my life
a wreck
somehow, in this life
all of us would make grave mistakes that there is no turn back at all
but wat to do?...
we cant be rational at all times can't we?
sigh
so much of forgiving and forget
so much of trying to understand
but i guess
all wounds have a scar
unless u have a heart of a child
i dunno how to alleivate the pain
how to remove that scar
all i can do is,
make u happier
to make the scar less ugly
take care dear
1:02 AM |
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was watching CHEMISTRY just now
interesting piece of shit
it is the common, normal, typical story line
but then again...
alot of pple out there would have experienced it isnt it?
it goes
howard has a gf, but becoz he came over to singapore to work
they sort of drifted apart
and meanwhile in singapore howard sort of fell for ruien,
and ruien has fallen for him too
but then
howard's gf came over to visit, and somehow, something happened?
howard has sort of decided to stick to current gf,
but yet he has to admit he likes ruien...
and becoz of that...ruien sort of need a break from everything
she is abt to leave
jsut then, howard's gf actually confessed that their relationship sort of faded into nothing,
and thus they broke up, amicably
but sadly....ruien was about to leave for her trip
howard was to get her back
okie...so u guys can check out next week
think it is the finale
toking about this story cant helped but think abit more
that fate brought 2 together
the rest is sort of up to the 2 person involved
but sometimes, heavens arent that nice u know
there are tests and obstacles here and there,
then of coz, making u cherish it more
yet sometimes, things just dun work out, yeah
i know it is maddening...ended up
no matter how hard u try,
damn it...it just breaks both of ur hearts
OUCH
but yeah,
u learn
no matter wat,
even u bleed,
u learn?
hahahaha
just a thot again
and now,
off to think of a great poem
hehehehe
*flying off into my universe yet again*
12:11 AM |
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Thursday, August 14, 2003
sorry readers
i cant think of any inspirations for great poems tonight!!!
guess i need to rest
will think of one tomolo!!
YAWNs
the darkness, the silence, the snoring from the brains
came just within seconds when i toppled right on the bed
1:47 AM |
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haha
okie now for something LESS SERIOUS
LOVE?
gosh
LOVE?
JO!!!!!!!WAT U THINK LOVE IS MAN!!!!
but hey now to speak things in a serious tone
do u guys believe in true love?
or is that this love that is ur only love?
hehehe
do post it on my comment or tag board?
sometimes
i think love is really an interesting thing
it comes and go yet it is always there
but jsut that how i hate pple exploit it and
yeah, make it look so ugly and terrible
love heals all
yet destroys all
but i thot only hate destroys?
if u love
u forgive
u just love
dun u?
i dunno if there exist the true love
coz i never have it i think (hehehe)
but i guess no harm trying i guess
esp when both feel good
but then again
just take things in a careful manner yeah?
dun play too much
if not, it would bounce it back to ya?
hehehe
i dun wanna to be another relacon to another sad couple!!!!
=oP
12:39 AM |
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finally got my laptop up again!!!
got the worm
great stuff
and becoz of me discussing it with jo on the bus
a guy actually asked me how i solved it?
WINNER
hehe
life like this...but then it is nice to able to help some1 who seems
helpless...better than nothing right?
and yeah,
i really wanna take philosophy..but i cant?
sigh......life like this and
to reply to my fren's blog
and glad it got his thots straightened out
haha...hey dear..maybe i do understand wat u were trying to say
coz afterall...i was in that state too..
SHEESH...but yeah, the days after the realisation were great
and still going strong and happy!
pple in this society face alot of diff level of stresses
but then again it is all in the mind isnt it?
alot of things struck me today, esp after toking to my gor
toking abt this galfren of ours
who sort of pushed blame to all of us
for making her life a wreck
yet we were trying our best to get her out
she blamed us
i am not of any position to comment too much but all i can say is
sometimes, in this life, it is always easier to push responsibilities to others
esp when it comes to mistakes u have committed,
but have u ever thot
wat u reap is wat u sow?
in a problem u face, u have to question urself
wat went wrong
have i done anything wrong?
and y did things go wrong?
did i handle the situation properly
and how am i going solve this current problem
and wat can i do to make things better?
yeah and this is wat i call self-reflection
becoz i believe and i think many would agree
that understanding ur own mistakes
and realising it goes a long way
rather than pushing the blame to others,
and running away from reality that most probably,
u r definitely partly at fault too
which actually aggravates ths situation?
we as outsiders cant do much
but give suitable advice if we are able to
we can stand by u, comfort u
making proper decisions, thinking and choosing a better path
is in UR OWN HANDS
u have to understand and able to see things as big pictures?
maybe sometimes,
i sound as though i am forcing something down ur throat to accept my views
but somehow,
it is ur choice to heed or not
and becoz of certain things i have seen,
that is y i have decided, this is the better soln out(and note that i never say best)
whether u agree w me or not, it is up to u
but all i can say
forgive and forget
makes u a happier person
maybe u still cant face alot of things in life
take ur time
but at least,
try
try watever u can
and at least, u deserve respect for trying
if u dun even bother to,
then truly,
no 1 would actually bother to help u
coz u just wont listen?
i dunno how to make u see it
maybe it just take that second that u see it finally
i dunno
but stop
meallowing in self pity
coz if u do,
u only think the whole world dun understand u
yeah u r right on!
the world never understands u
coz u dun even understand urself
coz if u do,
we would be able to catch ur words, actions real fast
take things into a different level of insight
see things as a lesson and
STOP HARPING OVER IT
u have a life to live
the past has gone, immediately after the second it has happened
so walk on
live NOW
hope for the future
if u allow the past to puppet u?
u dun live at all
NEVER
12:17 AM |
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Monday, August 11, 2003
interesting day to have past
but then again
my IE is giving a lot of problems
and it is only the start of school?
haha
ur sweetness is always lingering like a sour plum
ur bitter words seem to be pricking my tougue like hooks
but in the end,
only my ears can hear the crushing of every bite
and savouring every munch i have
b4 i have to digest it
yuck!
goodness..i have no idea wat i am trying to write?
maybe becoz of alot of things happening today?
nothing but a stupid lecture?
it is really interesting on how to allow to control a system so it doesnt explode or wat???
but the lecturer sucks...gosh....*seeing stars*
and wow!my fren is attending philo!!!
i am so jealous
DAMN
and i cant take it coz most of the philos gems clash with my timetable?
gosh
11:30 PM |
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a thot just flashed across
the coldness of human nature
sometimes, really freezes me
that i feel it is so empty and how heartless pple can be
but then again,
u cant blame them for all the pain they have been thru
and the hurt inflincted and tears they have shed
the past is gone
wat is the present?
how much pain have i given u into ur life?
that u would rather remember the pain than the luffter i have given
how i have done is just a choice
and so u did make ur own choice
maybe u choose to remember the pain and not the luffter
ouch
isnt it painful in the end?
it is going in circles again
the pain is going to go deeper and never stops
sheesh
sigh
1:46 AM |
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Sunday, August 10, 2003
"a gale is a gale, Mr Jukes, and a full-powered steam ship
has got to face it. There's just so much dirty weather knocking
about the world and the proper thing is to go through it with none
of what old Captaion Wilson of the Melita"
"We must trust her to go through it and come out on the other side.
That's plain and straight. There's no room for Captain Wilson's storm-strategy here"
"Dont u be put out by anything, keep her facing it, They may say what they like,
but the heaviest seas run with the wind. Facing it - always facing it- that's the way to get through.
You are a young sailor. Face it. That's enough for any man. Keep a cool head"
"There are things u find nothing about in books."
-qouting Captain MacWhirr in 'Typhoon', Joseph Conrad-
3:52 PM |
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everything to nothing
Spinning to every revolution, following hard to each destination
a stop to rest, a short respite
to replenish wat is lost, to store up all that has past
unleashing all fatigue,
the legs carry forward, each breathe taken
there is no turning back, no space for regrets
Within each night,
realisations that hurt, only graciousness accepts
what is for pain to be comforted, without any of which,
no comfort is known?
Within each sunrise,
preaching are heard, voices are sung beautifully
angels have arrived, but alas!
where are they?
The mind swerves to avoid, a lie it told to itself
for that is the truth so true, a lie becomes a truth.
the keeper to the key, unlocks the chain
opening the door to many inklings, which have no meanings
pieces of pieces of pieces,
an art for the beholder but only the art knows its own picture
oh how, to complete it?
Calmness reigns with all its almighty powers
or is it just the eye of the storm?
it is not just a fray, for life and death
a breathe is taken away only with a memory brutally removed!
Oh hourglass, a time that costs nothing,
is indeed worthless of any thoughts!
Watching this world, popping in popcorns
it is a stage well-played by none.
each face is identical, each action is predicted
everything never seems correct, no soul proves it wrong
what a gamble and what a joke,
all is to nothing, all is to nothing
everything is emptied by just a pair of eyes,
by just a pair of hands.
2:34 AM |
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feeling super tired now
got home ard a hour ago
and just sitting there
reading the NDP booklet on
"things that make u Singaporean"
yeah alot of things in there
do make me agree on them
but also tells me alot on how much i hate it too
but there is one that particularly good...
but i shant say anything abt it
alot of things are going thru my head
and realised,
jotting down everything on my blog
has becoming more like a personal blog
with ur closer frens reading and
finding it such a bore too
and maybe later
i would truly stop writing much on this blogger
and most prob updates of poems
and simple thots
an access to one's mind
is a poison to another
i dunno
i am indeed,
see that i am so jaded
that i realised,
i still lack something in my life
i dunno,
oh well...
i think i would start all my thots on my red book again
this holiday din end in vain somehow
yet i dun think,
i have grown up
just the same old me
wat a disappointment somewat
anyway
take care
*hugs*
1:10 AM |
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Saturday, August 09, 2003
started to tok to a fren
is it true that girls always feel insecured?
i have no idea
but somehow moving to this little neat corner
with the table lamp
i feel as though i have moved to hall
in my own room
that really personal space
i really like it in a way
i never have a room to myself
maybe that is y
i yearn to stay in hall so much so much
but i guess,
somethings have to forgo
so that other bigger things can be done or fulfilled
watever it is
i guess it is like this hur?
nothing much would change
i like my neat little corner
maybe,
those 4 hrs werent that worthless
hahaha
i wonder
i truly wonder
always wanted to stay out on my own
a little apartment but it sounds really dumb
when u have family to go home with
y bother?
dunno
if i have a chance
like going overseas to work or wat?
i would like to stay alone and see how things go
i know i suck at housekeeping,
but i can try my best
at least i will ensure i cook food for myself
and not survive on outside food which is unhealthy
and not on instant noodles too
nope
definitely not
haha
yeahyeah
fulfilling the dream house i wanna so much
hahaha
as if
glass rooftop
mountain or sea as back drop
right
hahahaha....maybe in my dreams...
wearing my sundress and my trekking shoes
walking down the sandy beach or along the mountain trails
hahaha
yeah i should enter my dreamland soon
it is so inviting
that i am smiling now!
=o)
madness sets in once again
but it is good to be mad
coz at least i am happy
allowing myself to soak in happiness
in warmth
and in secured feelings
hahahaha
2:18 AM |
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managed to catch amazing race!!
but i was so upset
the clowns,
were eliminated!!
TOUGH LUCK MAN!!!
who tell them not to take SIA??
haha
okieokie...
they cant help it anyway
it is just that lady luck wasnt smiling at them
coz one of the teams, the married gay couple
actually committed a foul of not going to the pit stop on foot
but by car
and was given a penalty of 35 mins
and the clowns failed to come in within that
sigh
they were thus eliminated!!!
how sad!
=o(
love their attitudes and easygoing nature in the game show
really...
take things easy
try their best and most imptly
they were well loved by every other couple
a really fun loving duo!!
oh well
now down to only 3 teams
i wonder which team would emerge as the victor!
1:32 AM |
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Friday, August 08, 2003
a terrible afternoon has passed
dunno i never like CLEARING MY TABLE
i admit
i am a terrible housemaker
i like things simple
dun like then throw
oh well
no wonder i am better at cooking
u cant be perfect
and never wanna be a home maker anyway!
inspirations running low
cant find much things to do
maybe should just reread tyhoon again
but this chair i am sitting on is super uncomfortable
crappy
i need to add something in here
shrugs
no money so
i dun go out
ahhh
maybe i will just rot
hehehehehe
rotting doesnt cost anything but time
that is good u know
5:32 PM |
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just read my darling's blog
it does feel weird
we have grown up yeah din we?
dunno, and somewhat together
sharing pain and joy
it has been
how long?
JC1 till now
am glad to have known this darling of mine
if not
life is definitely
BORING AND DULL
hehe
isnt it dear?
it is weird to have a galfren as darling
some commented
but we are really..
err
inseparable?
haha...oh well
we just compliment each other in a very
chemistry way?
haha...din we touch on that on our way back to clementi dear?
haha...
how many can be like us?
like xin and adeline?
like me and jo?
i am still grateful and thankful man
we are forgiving to each other and stuff
hahaha
sometimes
i would say we are like key and lock
haha
fits perfectly
even if u duplicate
u have to do it as a pair, hur?
haha...
dunno darling,
remember we always would go
"fuck off with all men,
we can elope together to the end of the world"
hahaha...
not that we are lesbians
but guess
within the closeness we have
we give each other that personal space
sharing views on ANYTHING
and EVERYTHING
hahaha
giving advice
lending a listening ear
a shoulder to cry on
a hug when needed!!!!
most imptly,
we simply
just
CLICK
hahaha
u heard it all the time when we are out
yeah just like she said?
we are the LIFE of alot of things
coz we just bloom like fireworks
like flowers
hahaha
maybe we may seem like clowns when together
but hey
we bring joy and happiness dun we?
hahaha
*winkz*
oh well
within our own enjoyment
we bring luffter to others too
wow
we are angels in party dresses?
haha
right...
watever it is
we are like sort of a perfect couple
haha
dear
think becoz of that,
we seriously
err
hahaha....
dun need ______
u fill it up..u know
just that
_____ may have become a bonus
as u would proclaim
a gift that drop from the sky
and me
something that comes when it comes
hahahahaha
but weirdly
we arent lesbians
hahahahaha
so now wat?
dun believe?
sue us then
hahahaha
errr...
in the end
frenship is when u bother to care
and the other bothers to care too
hahaha...
oh well
fate brings u together
u also need effort to maintain
and nourish it
u reap wat u sow
and lastly
there isnt a free lunch in this world
u have gotta to put in effort
and pray hard that it would
reward u with bountiful things,
be it bad or good
loving darling joanna always
(wat's wrong to say i love my fren(s)
u have frenships' day in replace of Valentine's day!)
*a great HUGZ*
*winkz*
1:34 AM |
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today was out with jo
and we were toking like hell
abt men and women
but it is interesting
that i started to pt out on stuff
that was an ambition of mine
to be a person i wanna to be
but then again
it is about the
multi-facade, situational character
that i was toking abt
haha
does it sound weird to u?
okie maybe i should do some good explanation
maybe u would be alittle more enlightened
multi-facade, situational character
it most prob, defined by me
that a person consists of different faces
some1 who, based on environment, pple and so on
changes his/her attitude, character to suit in his/her perfect way
nope, it is not a false facade or wearing a mask or wat?
but it is about bringing out different parts of u,
to deal with respective situations,
in the way u would think,
is the best and most comfortable
coz somehow,
i believe, humans are multi-coloured
maybe based on moods, based on pple they interact w
based on weather even,
it just comes right from u
one day u could be a charming young lady
another day, u r just a bitchy lady who whines almost everything
alot of pple could see it as, different mask u wear
but u arent faking it, so it isnt a mask
a mask is something u dun do wat u think u should
ending up, trying to hide ur feelings and thots,
trying hard to put on a front that differs alot more
with a situation multi facade character
u do wat u deem to do best?
u r doing from who r u inside
innate i would say
it may vary from time to time
but it is something, u have evolved to recognise and focus
then, with ur own judgement, deal with the situation
it isnt a fake, cynical way of dealing with things
but purely based on instincts
and gut feelings
and of coz thus making it ur own personalised style
for eg:
u r working in a multinational company
and u r into ur job
devoted, career-minded and all set to perform
so yeah, u wanna to climb ur way up
ur own way
regardless wat sex u r,
u wanna to be treated as a contenter
but now,
taking if u r a female(since mostly are discriminated)
u wish pple recognise ur efforts becoz of ur diligence
and not gossip that u use other side methods to obtain ur current success
and of coz, u did it thru sheer hard work of a good worker,
good colleague, good boss
coz u r some1, based on ur merits and competency and not
making use of ur beauty or selling sex as a ladder to climb
and yet, when come to solve certain problems
u ensure things get done with the most efficient way
knowing,
that u have certain intelligence and charms to work things thru
together, u bring out the beauty-cum-intelligence facade
and ensure things work out well
coz u can do ur stuff,
and u proved to have done it
yet within the context of brains,
u added a touch of personalised charms
that pulled off as a perfect combination of
healthy, clean contender with a tint of flirtatious charm
thus allowing u to be respected by both men and women in ur working world
not being depised or mocked at behind ur back as a loose woman w/o pits and brains
and yet not feared as an overbearing worker who just charged thru w/o much EQ
yet on the other hand
behind those scenes
u r mother too,
u have to play a role of a loving
caring and understanding mother
and definitely,
of coz a responsible and "devoted" wife/lover/best fren
u r definitely very easy to get along
trying very hard to reduce that generation gap u have with ur kids
and ensuring u and ur hubby have a healthy relationship
that love, passion goes on w/o much hitches
two different protrays of character just in one body
one with the determination of proving one's capabilities:tough
one with the innate maternal nature and perfect wife:soft
haha....
alot of career minded mothers are doing such now
tuff job ah
and how many have succeeded?
and yet within ur social circles
frens and family that u hold close too
u play multi roles such as a listener,
and advicer
a whiner and more
and yet totally personalised it as ur own
coz of the vastly-varied methods of handling different pricky businesses
u r able to provide
sounds like a perfect angel to me
not that it is
just that
tough business
u deal with care
soft ones
u deal with delicate touches
watever it is,
it is something
u know wat u want to do
u know how to go about dealing it
u know when to reflect
and u know where u stand in a situation
sounds like a tough job
but u r to realise,
that this is life
maybe it seems to sound like a mundane city dweller
but it is just an eg
u can lead a different life, completely
but judging of wat is the best,
u deal with it with the "situation multifacade character" u have
and make it a win win situation
but of coz
things dun go the way u always wanna it to be
thus u change along the way
or when it is getting out of hand
u jump right out of it,
and freeze to unleash all facades
and start afresh
a change along e way
seems weird to others
but it's a dream untold,
the biggest aspiration to the dreamer
wait and see how it unfolds
behold
and awe, maybe in surprise
in astonishment
be it bad or good
it is still him/her
this post is the weirdest i have ever posted
coz i have no idea,
wat my purpose of this blog post is
just that,
i have sort of lost my thots
and yeah, when i was toking to jo abt it
at coffee bean at HV
they were totally different
but yeah it is along that line
but then, i just refused to pen down wat we have actually toked about
afterall it is a public blog
and alot of things
are not meant for the eyes of the innocent and the ignorant
sometimes,
it is a blessing to know nothing at all
*winkz*
a change is sometimes
for u to enjoy
yeah
i know u wont understand wat i am driving at
but maybe
u would know if u look closely and yet wholly
good luck folks!
*hugz*
12:40 AM |
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Thursday, August 07, 2003
sigh
at the end of today
i would know if i have gotten my GEM
my 6th module
but i think
i wont get it!!!
the next min bid was 316
and all i have is 288
oh well
tough luck
wat to do?
meaning,
i have to piah next sem too
sheesh
tough luck
sigh
oh well..at least my thursdays are free now...
not too bad lor..
1:11 PM |
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again...reading my fren blog has
inspired me again
but then this time
i wouldnt share the same sentiments
(gosh...i have become a cyberstalker!
hahaha)
interesting topic that i touched on a yr ago
seriously
it was exactly a yr ago
where i actually posted this question to all the frens
present in that chalet
wat is a fren?
i reckoned many may just say
orh some1 who cares and be there all the time
right....ended up
it was all abt u!
some1 who cares and be there all the time
for u
haha
at that pt of time
i couldnt find my very own answers
not at all
i was actually
STUMPED
but then again,
i question further,
like
wat u mean be there all the time?
how much do u care abt ur fren?
how much is little and how much is too much?
and can u be there all the time like u wanna ur fren to be?
the whole chalet, err
din really answer
only a few answered
of coz..some were bz playing mahjong!
but then again
wat do u think a fren is?
i cant answer it again
not that i dun have a fren
definitely not
but to me
i know wat a fren can do
just be there when needed
and just that's abt it i guess
this is a fucking bigbig world out there
consisting really terrible,
foulmouthed,
evil hearted pple
but also there are ones
who really touch u in things they do
yeah,
like a true blue fren
i dunno
how often would u meet them
or maybe u dun realise or see their existence
but at least,
they are there
i have had frens i truly appreciate and truly cherish
to there was a pt of time
i was pissed at everything they did
to me, as i thot they did
then i was, wrong
maybe i had held on too tightly
not knowing how to let things go
(i am not sure if i am still like this now..hmm)
or wat?
yeah
those were the days i learnt it hard
i may be cynical
really,
was just analysing man's ugliness with a fren just now
but yet again
u see the goodness when something happens
was watching news on the blast in Jakarta
this man, who was sorched, 30%
instead of worrying abt himself,
the 1st thing he asked the nurse was
"are my collegues fine?
where are they?"
the nurse was so touched by his questions
he was showing concern for his frens
it was really sweet
somehow,
there are cases so real,
so flesh in front of u
maybe becoz u r in it
u din see it at all
oh well....
but it is fine i guess
hopefully it isnt too late
i agree that pple come and go
but there are frens that are meant to be kept (*winkz* jo's line!)
even though they arent there anymore, physically
it is the moments shared and things we've learnt together
no matter how far apart we seem
we still have shared something special
here,
i still wish u happiness
and all the best, fren
i guess,
that is wat i can do for those pple i call them my frens
some i hardly keep in contact
some are just left forgotten
some are still right here w me
thank u
letting it go isnt abt letting bad things go away
but also the good things
yeah with that,
i guess,
we learn to appreciate
and we appreciate those teachings
it is good still right?
yeah
it is still good
frens and family
sometimes
remember,
humans arent perfect
so am i
so r u
maybe being a little more forgiving
u and i can live happier
yeah
coz of the happiness u gave me
and also from ur best wishes that came from ur heart
*hugz*
1:34 AM |
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rewatched Lilo and Stitch
and was again touched
damn how such scene would make me tear
"This is my family
i've found it , all on my own
it is little and broken
but it's still good
yah, still good"
gosh
he went
"'cuse me, my name's Stitch"
and he is so proud of it
hehe....
and now..me hugging Stitch!!!!
heehee.....
12:56 AM |
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Wednesday, August 06, 2003
okie being nice
i posted the lyrics
UNWELL by matchbox20 for a fren
hahaha....
male darling:..haha...u check it out too...
go to my flingner
to look for it yeah?
hahaha
for good songs to relate to
haha
be optimistic!!!!!
listen to mariah carey:thru the rain
and our lady peace: life
it got me to sort things out better
hehehe
good luck guys!
2:26 PM |
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wat a day
had fun with some frens at harry's
lewis and joanna
then
hehehe...
oh well
jo and i started matchmaking again
hahahha
joey w lewis!
hehe
then i managed to leave the 2 behind to tok
and i went in to embassy for my free drink and
DANCED ALONE?
the music was good...till the band went for a break and
the DJ played tribal stuff again
oh well
i still like it
i love dancing!!!!!
hehehe
oh well
i think i am good at coming up w silly but fantastic ideas
hehehehe
and we did stupid things again?
lewis and i tried to move those blue balls that
are floating on the shallow pool in front of esplanade
haha
and got a bit wet!
FUN!
hehe..
stupid things u do,
before u really feel old
hahaha
*winkz*
12:49 AM |
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Tuesday, August 05, 2003
it is really bad
to see that there are 49 bidders going after
the gem i am trying to take which is
errr
only have 25 places
and die
oh well
wat to do?
SIGH!!!!!!!
luckily got general biology liao
somehow
they should really give top priority to yr 3 students
DAMN
1:36 AM |
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Monday, August 04, 2003
somehow
i am indeed feeling the monday blues now
i have no idea
but there is a something heavy
like a huge rock
on my heart, on my soul, on my mind
not that i am thinking too much
i mean...
how much can i not think?
heehee
but yeah,
it is getting me down
listening to alot of my fav songs
all time fav i guess
really
i truly think
life is never perfect in any way
u can never get wat u want
y?
how?
wat?
where?
when?
heck it all
fine
if i dun have it
i will look somewhere else
hahahaha
i have no idea wat i am toking abt
i shouldnt have stayed at home
should have paid a visit to my optician
as planned
but i din
i am too down to move anywhere
somehow
listening to 3 doors down again
this is a great great song
when i'm gone
it goes
but how selfish to a certain extent
but then again
u have to feel like 1 to keep sane
or u dun?
humans are really _____
i cant recall that exact word
but yeah
i understand myself
that is fair enuff
wish i can fly away to the starlit skies
again,
my heart yearns so badly
that i think that is home
i am a nomad
wherever makes me feel comfortable
that is my home
i am a wanderer
like the wind
thru every inch of vast green lands
down the valleys
onto the surface of the oceans,
away with those waves
riding along the clouds in the sky
i am the air
in i go and out i come
thru every living thing
i flow
that is where my home would be
3:43 PM |
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hehe....thanks to some1
my inspirations hit another high!!!
was thinking the whole day,
even when i was out with jo
after jo left
till i reached home and started to eat that macoroni and cheese
somehow
it just keeps coming back into my head
"different league lor"
"we belong to different worlds"
"we have similar outlook to life"
blahblahblah
and the list goes on
yeah, along those lines...
just keep popping in my head
wat do u pple understand by those?
pple from all walks of life
the pple we know,
are mostly raised by the kind of rice we eat
not much different i guess
but the environment,
the upbringing is different i guess
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yeah,
this is enuff to explain it all
but somehow
how we know?
like we belong to same league?
i mean....err
it is all the feeling right?
if it doesnt feel right
we r of diff league issit?
sometimes..
i think maybe there are cases
where it is beyond any communications or salvage
dun understand each other is dun understand each other
personality clash is personality clash
so wat is of different league?
different worlds?
or diff sets of personality?
dun pple change?
or pple dun?
it is confusing right?
"change is inevitable, yet, leopards will never change their spots"
wat r the things tat would change
yet which are those that remain?
somethings
really, cant be deciphered
in any sort of way right?
somehow
interactions,
human w human
are more like
or more than a piece of art
i dun see it as a skill
but somehow,
it has to flow naturally?
yeah, maybe i am an advocate
of a naturalist
but,
guessing games arent too nice to play?
assumptions r truly, inevitable but can be avoided
if we always think that
we all belong to diff worlds
or level of society
or thinking
how to penetrate and feel?
how to explain things better?
how to allow things to flow?
sometimes,
every1 of us
belong to our very own category
something we truly call it our own
no matter how alike or identical we are
in terms of actions, looks, school of thots, and so on
there is something different yet famailiar
it is again,
dun bother to think too much
but yet u cant help but assume
it is super hard to jump of that cycle
alone, jumping out of the
"we belong to different worlds" cycle
judgements are placed every sec
every thing u do
pple say something
it is a judegment
just like wat i am doing now
but some1 has to pt out
some thing has to happen
b4 something is done
even when nothing is done
that is that something that pushes it
coz the world still spins
to say or not to say,
that is the question
but feeling is not enuff sometimes
opening the mouth is not enuff too
it is something deeper
more than feeling, asking
it is just,
like,
pause and
sense it with everything u have got
and pushes it,
to a different level of sensory (again..i am categorising...so that i would stop categorising)
so hard so hard
but yeah
sometimes..
trying too hard isnt e action of
finding an excuse to stop trying
trying too hard?
wat is trying too hard?
somethings truly dun need any reason
let alone an excuse
it is just be
but yet other things
need a good reason to end it
coz
ur something may be my other things
and vice versa
arghhhhh
now
i am giving up on thinking logically
to do step by step analysis
(an excuse again)
if u think it is
it will be
so sad
too bad
if we are different league
if we are of different worlds
if we may do have similar taste
it is just wat u think to be
and i just cant be bothered to change it
coz that's wat u feel right?
okie lor
i wont try to change it
but i also have my own stand
wat different league?
wat different worlds?
wat similar taste?
now u tell me
r these the things that never be resolved?
no wonder this world is super imperfect
that makes it so perfect
really,
we will never understand each other,
do we?
if we do
it is so boring
if we do
i wont be pondering so hard and
giving up the process of analysis
life would be such a pain in the ass
coz i have nothing to think
to be sad
to be happy
to be confused
to be enlightened
haha
i am truly beating around a bush that never exists
this is true crapping
wat a true blue "philosopher"
*winkz*
HAVE I DRIVEN U NUTS YET?
*hugs*
2:26 AM |
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okie my tag board consists of tags that i dun understand?!
hahaha
u guys are crappy ah!!!!
esp my darling and male darling
these crappy good frens of mine
are screwing up my tag board!
hahahah
but keep up the good job
that is wat i am hoping to see
*stars spinning around my head*
hehehe
i am turning nuts again!
=oP
jo:
i just did the wrapping while catching
world badminton and F1
gosh..F1 was so SCREWED??
sigh....never seen such a screwed prix at all
but badminton was okie la
and the wrapping took me 2 hrs?
hehehe....
gosh and the present is HUGE!!!!!
okie..i need brushing up on my paper bag making
=oP
1:39 AM |
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Sunday, August 03, 2003
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i cant help it but decided to paste this here
thanks to kelvin, for sending me that piece of MP3
i really enjoyed the lyrics and all
i always get goosepimples when i try to close my eyes
singing to this song,
rocking back and forth
maybe it is somehow, when u have been thru it
u truly understand every single word of it
sometimes..u see it happening on others,
when u do feel strong enuff
u will also understand
enjoy the lyrics
and if possible listen to how tanya chua sang it
coz she's been thru it..that is y the flavour was there
the pain, yet the gain
the understanding,
and the realisation
u do grow up
2:33 AM |
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wat a day
nothing much err
shopping
correction: window shopping
right
haha
*dazed*
*dazzled*
*downing alot of water*
errr
*blurp*
i am not drunk
but i felt as though i am
i din drink any alcohol
*blurp*
i need a good rest
tat's all
hehehehehehe
=oP
*blurp*
maybe too much of jervis
when i walked into the house
he saw me and he gave me a DAMN BEAUTIFUL AND CUTE SMILE!!!!
though i was soooo tired, on the verge of being a zzz monster
a big grin broke across my tired face
and went up to go
"my darling jervis....y...smiling at sa1 yi3?"
power to believe
the happiness found in a baby
awwwww...
how cute my dear nephew is
hehehe...
he would look at u innocently,
or knit his eyebrows when he is questioning
or just start to be restless and insisted the "carrier"
to start walking around instead of sitting down
hahaha....
the joy of a baby in ur life
all i remember is,
i wish i am a mother myself when i felt that kind of motherly love
dun care if i am single or married
a kid is nice
am i not selfish?
okieokie...
i am getting too out of point?!
brain is malfunctioning...
how can?
*blurp*
12:36 AM |
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Saturday, August 02, 2003
was reading a fren's blog
(and yeah..toking abt u now alwyn!!!!)
that it is interesting that alot shared my view
about life
getting out of the vicious cycle and stuff
i am sort of inspired
and yeah..i missed amazing race AGAIN
and i hate that..but never mind there is a repeat telecast
somehow
seeking solace
aloneness..(staying at home alone)
has become something that urban dwellers look forward too
not a yuppie lifestyle(to stay away from family)
but a chance to get away from everything
the fast pace of working work
the hussle and bustle of living in a city
a little retreat right at home
correct..blasting the sound system
dancing around...singing on top of my voice
doesnt seem to even make me self conscious at all
i am just me
i am not judged by any1
i am just being me
haha...
a very good attempt
in striking balance in ur very own damn life isnt it?
oh well....
a few of my frens have been getting into such lifestyle
my "gor" for instance..
he got into hall
though he has a gf, a very heavy hall life to live
but yet,
he enjoys his very special quiet time in his single room
back in hall
i guess
it is a time to breathe and just breathe
focus
and life would be better
no longer mandane or even boring
u just do wat u have to do
backpacking
another dream shared between me and a few frens
haha
(gor...dun think we can fulfil that little wish of ours then?)
my male darling says i am dreaming
to be so impractical
backpack around the world
actually
if i have the guts now,
i would just pack and go
really...
it is the comforts around me
and settled feeling that is pulling me back
so much of i,
preaching of getting an own life of one
but i am trying to do something diff
maybe discovering life in a diff perspective
i have no idea how i am attacking that
but i just feel more
though i must admit
life,
my life, has reached to a rather stagnant pt
it has always have been
but i believe that one day
that i can make it work it out
in the way i chose
not to prove any1 wrong
but to do it
for wat i wish to do
i always luff it off
as a utopia
but wat is a life w/o dreams
and aspirations
we seek them everyday
every sec
from a puny ant
to the end of the ever expanding universe
live ur dreams
there is nothing wrong abt them at all
coz they make u feel so alive
so fresh and blood
so weird
reading his blog makes me revive those days when i was in total depression
maybe becoz i totally understand how he feels
in almost every single word he says
i am glad that i have seen this life in a more light hearted manner
not to say,
though i bitch alot at times....(well..gotta let it out sometimes mah!!!)
but i guess
it is another give and take situation
life is so fascinatingly mysterious
that u never know which turn brings u
but at least u have got to walk it
with some dignity and confidence
even when unsure,
stop and watch,
pause and think
maybe this world wont stop spinning
but at least,
ur foot steps are of ur very own pace
this society bounds u up too tightly
u cant breathe
transform within this conformity
if solace or peace is within u and ur soul, heart, mind
it is everywhere
regardless where u r
wat u r doing
even when u feel so empty about life
be glad that life is empty
a void
that u know
u have had something in it b4 that
and something would fill it up again
that anticipiation
sometimes unprecedented
makes life maybe alittle unbearable and bearable too
hahaha....
it is always the nite that makes me say more
abt wat i have to think of life
i always remember when i posted them this q
"wat is the top 3 things u wish to have in ur life?"
most went..a good romance and or a rich life
and mine?
jus a simple life
down a lane,
with a simple house with glass rooftop
with either the sea, or the mountain as backdrop
sometimes..
maybe a good romance is easier to get
but i truly am, in love,
with that dream of mine
STILL
doing watever i can
i am self improving (i hope)
i dun wish to compare with others
the basis isnt there anyway
just me and myself
just gotta do better than i did
*winkz*
2:28 AM |
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wat a tiring day
w/o much proper rest yesterday nite
or should say today morning
i am to wake up to market and help cooking
then
okie
frens stayed till 1030pm!!
and i am dead beat now!!
hahaha
DEAD
i cant even type properly
tiredtiredtiredtired......
=o(
12:41 AM |
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Friday, August 01, 2003
hehe
finally added a tag board
coz i dun have a comment board
oh well
will figure it out next week i hope!!!!
HTML!
GOSH
hahaha
do drop a tag k??
*hugz*
3:10 AM |
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damn my post din come out again!!!!
wat was i toking about?
give and take
correct
humans are selfish in nature
pple always trying to unload their problems onto u
they cling like u r a pillar of life
always unloading
then u wish that there is some1 who is there to for u to unload
wat a vicious cycle again
can u jump out of it?
so much of complaining
u r just like any of them
have u tried?
have u ever thot about it at all?
family, frens
ur loved ones
have u ever spared a thot for them?
how much can u do is then called enuff, or sufficient?
is it responsibilities...no choice..that is y u r doing it?
watever it is,
do it from a good heart la
sometimes
we need to learn new things and teach at the same time
bad guys or good guys u r being
it doesnt matter
the step taken determines the next
good luck
somehow,
maybe,
we need to stop and breathe!
and we will relax
1:29 AM |
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wat a day
finally trimmed my hair!!!
thinner now!!
if not
it is soooo thick
like my current hairdresser
she is good man!
oh well
my hair looks super straight
haha
and i asked her abt japanese perming?
haha
but wah lau
must maintain
i am such a lazy pig
how to maintain it?
oh well...
watever
superficiality isnt that easy to do u know
oh well
love, money, bread
hahaha
heck them la
live life as it is lor...
sigh
i am happy
i still can cook. swim
WEIRD
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