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Monday, August 30, 2004
there is no way..how am i to pursue a degree in sociology??
goodness...i think i have to save a whole load of $$$$$....it costs me at leastUS$ 22-30k a yr
to survive. thank u.
how could humans, as they grow older, the stupidier they've got?trying so hard to be the almost perfect human, yet it is crumbling inside, this is getting way too interesting for me.
and yeah i am part of this cycle too.
life is like climbing a mountain...u go up and then down, back where u came from, the ground
so u r a kid u grow up and u age. u need to be taken care of, u grow independent and then pple depend on u then u finally, dependent again on others.
queer
maybe i'll be just be a matchmaker, but ed went"but u cant convince pple at all, u have all these ideas and stuff, but u r not attached urself!?" okie...so can i lie? but i am pretty convince that reading "the family life" can make pple want to marry the next person they love and have many babies!of coz, it shows that babies come AFTER love and not the other way around.
adoption, ONS, cutting and then connecting it back aka vascetomy and reverse vasecotmy, the curves, the lust, the "how can i make love to a plastic cup", "i am going to be a doctor and a single mum at the same time", the "manymany tests to see if my husband and i are fertile or not", the cold, loveless IVF to be done becoz the love we have for each other isnt enuff to make us our own baby.abortion, miscarriage, where money seems to pathetic compared to family love, regardless broken or not.
3 sisters looking after each other, while dad works sooo hard outside jsut so see the success in his career that he cun find in his family, which his wife decided to walk out just becoz "she cant be the mother she was to be". the support that a broken family given was much stronger than those who came from "perfect full family"
how they wanted to give the adopted kid everyhting they could and finally gotta their own child.
even if they lost the big house and the ferrari business.
the mother who forever thinks she is to be youthful, and not a mum, in the end, needed her daughters the most. yet the 3 girls, one who hated kids for she was the "mother" had her baby with the man who she loved (who was divorced with a teenage boy, who had a vascetomy)
the 2nd, after 6 yrs of infertility, of trying sooo hard to have a baby, where sex became the way to make babies, finally got pregnant when both of them "made love" and not "made babies"
3rd...after ONS with a hunk who thot he could change for his daughter, still cun stop playing the field, enjoyed being a doctor, raising her Poppy, all grew to love a full family.
maybe, babies do make the world goes round, if u have love, that is.
so, make more babies, go to bed early and look beside u, the one who warms up the bed with u,
the one who does the spoon on u, the one who went thru all the shit with u, to have the house u have now(yeahyeah...trying to pay it off thru unseen money, CPF), to struggle to make ends meet so tat u can have a car. (and a car is pretty useles in s'pore) take a litte romance out of something ordinary. kiss her and say "u're beautiful even w/o makeup, serious" tell him," hey, it is okie, sit down and relax and watch ur soccer" (EPL might be withdrawn from singapore cable tv)
thus make sweet love.
damn, am i not good at this.
c'mom, ROM should give out this book to every newly wed and then tony parsons will be so grateful to me and maybe give me some commission, then i can take up sociology overseas.
thank u!and dear wong kan sen would be glad to hire me as a consultant so i wouldnt be jobless when i graduate!
oh damn, am i in the wrong course? hahaha.....
of coz not, w/o chem engineers, u wont even have laptops, water, plastics, electricity etc....
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wat an interesting sunday
zzz like a pig...i realised i never have difficulty in sleeping ever since beginning of august.
think no RP then danced like hell, makes u a happy and tired person
then haha...my dear buddy called me from USA!..hhaa...he was like..."it's 230am in the morning....was trying to go clubbing but apparently the queue was too long!"
by the time we ended chatting..it was 330am and the guy goes "i am tired! yawn and my roommate isnt back?" hahah..guess wat...i told him "u r old liao..coz the pple there are under 20!" anyway, jodarling, he sent his regards to u!..n i told him ur bday...so...if he forgets abt it...hunt him down...
then it was joanna who called...hahaha..and she was bored...guess think she is too busy to even meet her darling till her bday..hahaha.....*hugz* i miss u too....
bbq for grandma's bday...haha....dunno...feeling queer..but haha..jervis never fails to amuse me!!!
he was singing god knows wat song..guess jervis was smart enuff to compose himself!
haha..and he would swing one of his arm and sing, then grab my finger using the other...and walked...
so CUTE!!!!...always want me and er jie to carry...awww....how could i resist such a boy?!
love is a waste of time? but a word from ur loved one would give u the hope and confidence
to do anything!
this jap show never fails to amuse me
but cool stuff..the girl was like "while u repursue the dream of getting ur olympic gold for table tennis, i would fulfil my dream as a boss who owns an enterprise!"
hahaha.....but stupid girl, only said "u r the only man i love" when he has boarded the bus and the guy cun even hear her?? haha..but tell ya..the guy is cute..soo boyboy...hahaha...but abit fair ah!
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Sunday, August 29, 2004
forgot
hahaha..today met steph and her haha...jimjim *shudders*
haha..they looked...actually...stpeh i told u b4...got the couple look right?
hahaha......but think jimmy is scared of me..coz i was trying to copy how he walks!??!
hahaha.....
hrmm
hideous things i see now to 2 girls in my life
jo and steph...
but i refrained from commenting further
time will tell it all
i think my intuition for certain things NEVER FAILS
so, i will just sit back and relax and enjoys being an onlooker...
-- find romance on ur menu, wat a difference a day made, and the difference is u--
jamie cullum.
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can some hot hunk says he misses me!??!? PLS?!?!?!
hahha..okie i am bitching but i am in a terrific mood today!
YEA!!!! finally after one whole bloody week of crankiness...bonucy, crappy huihui is back on!
*cheers!*
haha...having slept for errr....10 hrs and somehow woke up with a queer mood thinking of soemthing which i was NOT supposed to but heck...
danced danced..and going to help out with the dance school's asia dance competition in oct...
which emans..i can see pple competiting!!!! DROOL!!!!!!! elaine and i going to take up jive technique class..this would csot me quite abit.....100 bucks for 8 sessions..heck it..ADE: u interested?!?!?....=oP hahaa maybe we will take rumba together so tat we can HUG/"make love" each other...send each other flowers...pretend we fly thousand miles to see each other....how abt that??????????*kidding*
haha..think chacha has got some of us really hyped...while me luffing at lewis's weird steps, trying to shake his bums...err...with his knees bent OUT not in..haha...he was trying to learn interjive that he missed..but who i missed the most is shaun..my junior from ACJC? haha...think both of us can jive..haha...the stop n go...CHIO......lalalala..
can i ask, a girl who is 21 turning 22 in exact one month's time still grow???
hahaha...i have a few pple telling me i have grown TALLER!??! hahaha...it seems i have....
i am definitely NOT 162cm but taller...hrmm..time to have my height taken....hahha..
TALLER!! can i have err...bigger boobs? hahaha...paiseh...wanna to charm men down the streets...with tat "voluptuous" figure!PUI....in the book by tony parsons (yeah, alwyn...the author of man n boy ur fave book that u bought to USA), the family way, there was this part that goes " men always get attracted to women with a face younger her age, but a body of a well-grown woman.-- face of a young gril, body of a woman."
hahahaha.........am i not getting incredibly crappy? hell yesh.
going to start a new regime of haha..reading tons of newspaper and start hunting updates for chemical industry..i wanna really be a business development manager...PRAY!
hehe...too much things to do and too little time!!!!!....haha...
okie tomolo is piano and party time.
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Friday, August 27, 2004
something hilarious happened at work today!
if i am loud, i have found some1 LOUDER!
jolin, the temp staff in my company, very nice girl, n only 20...dang, makes me sound old...=o(
anyway...
we came back from lunch and in my hands were 2 fried chicken wings left for tea break...
it was a pretty cold and VERY BORING DAY FOR ME.....coz i was sooo sleepy and very cranky, no thanks to andy for toking abt his r'ship problems...then...hahaha
i suddenly heard our dear jolin debating with JJ and ravi abt men being CHEAP! mind u...she was standing on the inner side of the whole level 3...she and her theories of men being cheap and bastards..coz of her bad experience she had 3-4 months back...then
i have decided to have our break...so went to pantry with jolin...and chatting with her abt ourselves..then she started (dunno for how many times) abt her ex bf, lewis...and his lies he had told her and the things he said abt her being a bitch...very unreasonable guy i must say
but the pt was..JJ came in....by then, jolin was alittle worked up,...then i told her...
"hey girl, u know..it is over liao...now u r with TL so y u so worked up? i mean..when u accepted TL, u sohuld have let lewis go lio mah...."
but she went on and getting louder i have to ask her to lower
then JJ came in hahaha..the 2 started to have an argument
coz JJ doesnt liket he idea of her getting attached so fast (for TL is this poly IA student meaning they only kenw each other for like 2 weeks and got atached) and it seemed jolin hasnt gotten over lewis!! and JJ was trying to compete with jolin's voice. so one louder over another one!
me and mei jsut stood there and stared...and trying to hush them down
till..the big boss came in to go toilet..hahahah
but it was bad
coz after which we finished food ...the whole office actualyl knew the 2 of them arguing
hahaha...tat wa sthe funny part...
goodness......u sohuld have seen jolin and JJ;s reaction
ahhahaha
but then on the ohter hand
ravi and i concluded that jolin took TL as a rebound...sigh..which is sooo true...and we were like...oh well...sigh...TL is quite a nice guy i guess...(but who knows for sure but...still?!??)
jolin really got me slamming her back
she always go...all men are cheap..blahblah then i went "so y r u with TL? since u cant trust men?"
she was like..can try lor...dotdotdot
she told me TL told her alot of sweet nothings abt promising her and that....she refuted him saying..u think i would believe??
goodnesss.......think jianan and ravi and i cant take it but haha..wat to do
JJ went she is still young and naive..then i went "well...since all have to go thru, so does she"
JJ told her "u ahve to learn tat u have to realise wat u have NOW and FUTURE not the past....since u dun wanan patch back with him...for wat u tok abt him still?"
haha....u know i just hope that she is able to put that stupid lewis behind her
tat guy actually sms her to ask her if she still likes him. he wanna a patch back..
i told her "IGNORE HIM!afterall u told urself u never want to get back to him liao mah, now u have TL who is much better, lewis isnt worth ur time since he is such a bastard....so cherish!"
sheesh..tat lewis is really terrible..really dunno how to be a bf somemore...faintz...
guess they were still young then...but 19...oh well..dunno....take jolin as idiot and can bluff her saying this "u stupid ah...govt take away our passports (he was abt to enlist) how to go JB??u dun trust me issit?"
wah lau....govt only take ur IC and u r not even enlisted....cant go overseas meh?!?!?how to trust a guy like this? such a fact also lie like he is right?...PIANGZ
hope jolin will reflect wat JJ and i have told her!
hahah...
but this girl, deserves a good guy
she has a heart tat is good- natured and very courteous. wish her all the best
TL is a good catch though..hahahahaha
toking abt bastards...ravi was once a BIG SCUM!
haha..rebound never mind.....he was tat rebounds' first bf! and err..
and toking abt which, wat is sexual harressment? and wat is flirting?
hahaha....
erps
i shouldnt say too much.
*winkz*
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Wednesday, August 25, 2004
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sing, sing a song, sing out loud, sing out strong.
life is like a piece of sonata,
3 movements, depicting the diff phases of life.
if i sing out the blues,
if i could hum out the tunes,
if i write the song about the dunes,
i would play the song all day, all nites, in tune
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i have this weird weird apparition suddenly,
to see myself playing piano, singing, and then dancing?!
have i engaged myself into the performing arts?
i dun mind...really.
it is a place where i find my passion (dance) and my peace (piano)
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Tuesday, August 24, 2004
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every1 dislikes me in many ways.
some to an extent of hating me.
i guess all i can say is,
i am sorry.
for i am only human.
life goes on.
it is time for well water to stay where it is,
and not mixed with river water.
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Monday, August 23, 2004
why does my heart feel so sad today?
i cant help but blogged.
y do i feel like crying suddenly?
sometimes, it is just one of those days
give me time, i hope, tat dream would come true.
i'm sure it would, believe okie? u have a good future to see it come true.
and it will!
dunno y whenever i look fwd to tomolo, and soemtimes, it seems empty, purposeless
u dunno y u r doing this, u dunno y u r NOT doing tat, u ask urself, can u continue to live blindly,
leave aimlessly, like some floating soul, not knowing its own identity, position and home?
was watching national rally, and LHL said something which struck me, tat life is a learning process, it never stops. it changes u, it changes the pple ard u, it changes the society, it changes the country, it changes the whole world. it all starts within oneself. u can be who u r, as long as u r able to extend ur talent, regardless of wat it could be, as long as it is useful to the wellness or wellbeing of a place, u r playing an impt role somewhere, somehow. u have to be confident of urself. u have already reached thus far, pple learn from u, u learn from others too. it is interdependent, experiences are to be heard, and applied in their respective, suitable ways.
times change, so do pple and their views, attitudes. where do u belong? wat kind of sense of belonging to u have? where's ur home?
mao said something interesting. there are times when u sail, there isnt wind at all.
but when there is wind, u move. when there isnt wind, u create ur own wind, or u can paddle.
either way, u move too. though maybe at a slower pace, but u still move.
simple things in life u do everything, seems trivial yet contains the most logical, sensible, practical knowledge tat cant be learnt from all the specialised education in the whole world.
row row row ur boat
gently down the stream
merrily merrily merrily
LIFE IS BUT A DREAM
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Saturday, August 21, 2004
just got really cheessed off with my dad.
really seriously angry
i dun get it...
sometimes, it doesnt make sense
but it has been a long time since i actually got angry or vice versa
finally got a taste of jun's infamous tiramisu and cheesecake (did i have too much of tat tat's y?)
it is really good...he can really bake! and must say..hahaha..he looks really really relaly good
tanned. with the kind of body shape (but a little to big la) and that bigbig smile and specs.
hahahah...totally my kind and to think 3 yrs back, he was calling me a bitch n me calling him a bastard back. hahaha...fantastic joke i tell ya
sat there, and realised alot of things, mah was there, n was thinking, how on earth did i actually feel something for him then?he is still cute in a way, but tat was then n really, u can really get over things.. hahaha....u grow up dun u? din get to see dong and jun had this hideous plan to ensure dong doesnt know i ma there and give dong a surprise?? hur?
hahaha...oh..too bad...it was spoilt...
always felt nice to chat with alvin...really..hahaha..
now i know who he reminded me off...or rather alwyn tan reminded me of, alvin.
it';s the way they articulate while talking and the way the tok too...
but alvin is milder of the two.
when u r 20 something, wat's the thing u would like to do? like to explore? who would u like to be with? in either way, wat's the next best thing to do besides sitting here and blog?
to me, u caught me, i dunno either.
at this rate, all i know is, i am going to dance 3 times a week(excluding small practices while waiting for something to happen at work, in toilet at home listening to my music), play piano twice a week, do my theory once every week.
i can forgo alot of things.
just to pursue tat dream
it is MY dream
dun stop me thank u very much
*yawnz*
and stop saying "u no bf meh? dun bluff la!"
u think i am chio doesnt mean i have guys going after me leh
*roll eyes*
yeahyeah...i dun have a bf but i am lesbian
i am in love with this girl.
how abt that?*hugz*
and to think, i hardly get mood swings....just once in a while u get to think alot, abt life and where to go..then esp the past 3 days....err..missing some1 badly..but hahaha...i actually heck it!
*winkz* no its not alwyn tan though some1 promised me he is going to emial me and jo!
BLEAH.....did u get my gmail add correct or not dude.....
okie think i would stop blogging for another 4-5 days
si tian hui is back!
woohoo.
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Friday, August 20, 2004
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if u breathe to dance,
learn to breathe
if u dance to breathe,
learn to dance.
a step forth, the weight shifts.
a step back, the body sways.
the hips doing the figure 8,
completing with the beats.
u swing clockwise, u double turn.
u swirl the heel, u touch the sky.
u pause to kill, u turn to touch.
charm! charm! charm the man!
in ur own world, in the embraces.
maybe, its all abt the moves,
the touches, all the slides.
do i look sexy, do i look man
do we dance, as we dance?
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Monday, August 16, 2004
in a state of mind where u see ur direction of life back
hahahahah....
jsut wish tat it would happen.....
but sometimes, heavens play sport of men
hahaha...
andy: no worries la, as u said, u have prepared for the worst yet hope for the best
guess wat will be urs will be. just take care and pray she would wanna continue the r'ship
coz if not i think it is a waste, coz being different doesnt mean clash, if u guys have clashed, would have 2 yrs back. maybe just a crisis to put ur r'ship to a test! *hugz*
haha..and yeah. i have been relaconing for the past 2 days...hahahha...
weird feeling though.
coz...all i can do is listen and philosphise.
CHEY!
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Sunday, August 15, 2004
me and my only man in life, JERVIS 
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think i am in love wit jervis
think he missed me or wat.....suddenly saw me
insisted me to carry him the whole nite..and i cun even eat my dinner...
till my arm went numb....and cun eat my dinner properly
he refused to let my da jie, his father my parents to carry
only me
then later my er jie! LUCKILY!
and i realised, he misses me!!!
gosh..he never see me for 2 weeks and he misses me!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha...sorry
but i love him so much
it makes me sooo happy just to see him happy, smile, and listening to me telling him watever we see along the way.
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weird weird weekends.
haha...
jodarling: enjoy urself...orh..read ur blog..no worries la..i am fine la!...i remembered those words la...LKY's words never failed to inspire me...it is an adventure. i just need luck and chance. but guess i have to work on my side too..no worries...it is good to see u happy...hahaha...u happy can liao..i will try to be happy to u la...so tat u have nothing to worry abt!duh...but i am fine wat?!...hahah
steph: aiyo...dun think so much..cant sleep right? go watch tv or read ur book? it works alot...hugs..sometimes, dun look to hard in it then maybe things dun look as bad...and haha...if u r prettier...maybe ta'ts becoz u look fresh mah!...but dun let tat get into ur HEAD!..hahaha..if not head super big la!...like me...some1 called me ms universe....but i ignored...hahaha long story..PUI... (i am puiing myself la!) study hard..notes would come...hoepfully.....=oP
dance was pretty funny! hahaha....must be the tan i ahve and stupid....allen was very baichi the whole day...first, lewis and i just happened to meet each other on our way to dance..then he saw us coming and he went "wah...u managed to drag him back ah!?" i wa slike..no?...he wanted to come back himself........and suddenly lewis decided to buy dancing shoes and he said "ooi..now i dun mind joining competition!" duh........haha..this shawn guy though PRC very cutE!!! hahaha..and lewis la...so slwo in asking me to dance..he came up to me first..awwwww.....
lewis..u so slow..ur pretty dance partner will be snatched up okie?....hahahahahahah
i think i would miss jive alot...interjive ended tat day..imagine i had 3 hrs of intensive dance!! chacha was fun so was rhythm! and i think i almost strangled allen again..it was already 530pm and i need ot rush off to DE to meet family for dinner and chalet..so after the slower speed dance for jive, i changed out shoes and abt to leave..then allen went "so fast?? dance the normal speed first la...if u dun dance hor..alice cant sleept tonight!!!" then alice went "me? u la!" then i was like hur? i need to rush off? he went "the guy will wait la...wah..."
"i am meeting ym parents......" haha..then he stupidly went "aiyah..change la...last dance...normal speed" then alice started to luff.....then the WHOLE CLASS STARED AT ME
SO PAISEH...adeline..i almsot wanted to kil him.....................
so i jsut dumped my bag onto the floor, changed there and then just had my "last dance", orson as partner....bish..........and then rushed out again....like some mad woman...........
dunno wat the #%^&#* was going thru that guy's head!!!!!!!........then again..he is always like this...............................i sohuld have just walked thru tat door..which i left half open....
stupid me....must be not thinking after all the dancing.......adeline is asking me to go for advance jive..wah..no partner la!....
anyway..hahaha....
alwyn: wah...email me hor!!
hahaha....wah..so exciting..when u settle in..tell me and stuff...maybe can find time to call ya or wat?hahahhahahaha must tell me how's ur orientation ard there....*winkz* hahaha...maybe call me when jo and i are out together..then we can listen to loudspeaker...haha...
u brought ur hp there? i can sms...heeheehee...err...
i am definitely going to catch collateral
by hook n by crook.
alone, with tom cruise
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Saturday, August 14, 2004
this is me n JODARLING
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hahahha....doesnt this look familiar?? at least i din put up ur face okie! lalalalala...tat's how unclamourous my bud is. hahahhaha...try to match his face then...
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my half eaten cheesecake
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KL TRIP! hahaha
hahaha this is pretty outdated.....it is supposed to be in june la
haha
DUN I LOOK SLIM IN THIS PHOTO????
wah...like soooooo sexy..hahaha..hair to one side..
hahahahhaha...but where's my jo darling....hehehehehe
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Friday, August 13, 2004
this is part of the island
hahaha...nice horhor??? lazy to put up the sunset
me and my fishy!!!
yeah my first caught fishy...and tat's hk's father..hahaha...
gosh i look terrible...never looked good in photos anyway
bird eyes view and gosh havent i slimmed down??
wah...i think i really slimmed down alot liao..nice hor? this is on top of the island..could go higher on the other side. but never explored!
*leaving out hk and me photo* too big liao
i looked really weird here and no la...i wont snatch him away from u la
he is yours alright!
hahaha i always think i look terrible in photos....
errr....no chio one...
sigh..............
not chio in the 1st place..hahahahha.....
how i wish....
muahahhahaha
there are alot more la..but lazy to put it up
hope it isnt toooooo big
hahahha...
sheesh..how?
i miss tat place and somehow i am a nature girl
hahahhahahahaha
never mind
i look really really weird.
hahahhahaha....like a boy hor?
hehehe...oh well..tat's me alright.
girl and guy...dunno wat shit am i anyway!
hahaha
miss the stars too...
actually i miss it alot alot...
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Thursday, August 12, 2004
interestingly
it is solitude i miss
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it is weird how life has brought u to many pts and u see different things
and all i can say is,
maybe u can be talented in certain ways,
but u might jsut need more motivation than talent
maybe one day i will be touched,
maybe one day i will get lucky
maybe one day i will get to see it for me
maybe one day i will get to hold on to it till death
u cant close a chapter fully, and this is a very personal pt of view
i can tell ya i can wait for a lifetime for something i truly want and need
and stubborn enuff not to budge from tat.
and i still want my dream
and i know i have to do alot alot alot more than i am doing now
but slowly
even if i dun reach to tat dream, the process is suffice to enrich me
i am nothing to all, but at least i still hold a place in this universe
the preparation for all, is for a better ride, but u never know wat would happen along the way
so embrace, enrich and enjoy.
tat's wat i saw during the trip to sri buat
even if i am different from them, i am still onboard.
even if i am of out of place, i am still there.
the stars still shine, the earth still spins.
u can give all u have left to ur very last breath and not feel anything
the wind doesnt howl though it is blowing
the waves dont sound though they are hitting the rocks
tat's when u realise u dun hear wat could be heard,
blinded to wat could have been seen
tat's the day when i promised myself, i should stop forcing myself
to hunt for my dream, to find back "myself",
to let things go, to stop being stubborn, to stop harping
i stop forcing myself
and i am not forcing myself to stop forcing
alwyntan: haha..by the time u see this..u r like in usa liao!...u neat freak, cant believe how neat ur room is still....errr...looking at my table..okie fine..i dun make my bed either!!hahaha...anyway... take care and enjoy urself like never b4 okie?and i bet u will....
jodarling: hahaha....so i pray everyday to ensure u see ur masters thru in 5yrs time
so u r in time for a good hahaha...__________________
okie?and i still dun get the 80% like thingy..goodness.u like means u like..u dun means u dun?
hrmm..........ponders
steph: white mice arent tat bad...the most hahaha.....whine alittle
thinkg wang will give way tohelp
hehe...pray u have post gradauates to help...
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
at this rate i think NO 1 misses me while i am away........3 voice mails from dunno who shit?
and some1 who keeps smsing me and tells me "hi can u call me back now?"
WHO THE HELL R U???
BUT I HECK IT!
recharged in a way, away from civilisation...(well almost coz we thot auto roaming wasnt possible..but apparently it was possible in the end!!!)
really?
all we depended on was the food we brought there and i tell ya, auntie nelly, hk's mum, packed almost the whole kitchen there..and i never go really hungry...infact i wondered if i got fat...hrmmm...anyway...breakdown of wat happened
day1:
reached there pretty late than expected...with one of the canoes toppling down into the sea on our way there, the other got FUMED! and thus a hole was created..ouch i would say.. then the survivors series from NZ came and took one of the few beaches that no1 actaully knew abt...and waves were too strong to go to their usual spot so we took a while to decide and ended up in one of the beaches facing directly twds m'sai mainland..but no worries..i cant see them for nuts! and then it was almost evening b4 settling in and tada! stars actually were shining so brightly i could see the MILKY WAY!!!!i tell u...i never see so manby stars and all i did was sit on the beahc, with the sea breeze blowing, gazing the stars...it was almost of complete darknes.... awesome feeling i tell ya!!!! and i tell ya, i fell aslept in the tent immediately...gosh...the first time in dunno how many donkey months!!!
day2:
adventure started with a BANG! with something stirring at ur bladder u need to answer the call of nature and really, u go back to nature...treacherous road to toilet...mind u..u have to do in behind a bush, dig a hole and pee or shit.....it was stupid of me...to go up the slope...it was bad [place to shit..so in the end, nothing came out?! only peeeee..........
but it was all fantastic when we set off for snorkellig...the old man (with the big boat) picked us and the canoes up.....to this other part fo the island...gosh...i saw CLOWN FISH!!!!!..hahahaha...and "albino stingray" hehehe.....but the water tat day was alittle murky...but still can see alright..i din have to wear contacts even!.. then we went back again for lunch.....heheheh...yumyum..thouhg i cant recall wat we have for lunch..hrmmm
then after which we went back to similar spots but further in and went to dig for "rasmus"? a puny kindof shell fish!!!! and cockles and uncle ben got his oyster! hahaha....yumyum..on our way back to our campsite...gosh...i tlel ya...the waves were very choppy...coz our main boat cant dock into the land coz of the reefs (yes...my beach is cut off by reefs from the sea!!) and we ahve to get the canoes out...(only 3 survived, 1 down) then we have to brave the 5-6m tall waves....gosh...but the wind was good...we din ahve to worry abt mosquitoes at all times!
dinner was porridge with potluck! all 28 pple gahtered and had dinner under the stars!!!! tell ya
the breeze was refreshing...and cooling and the star just became our lightbulbs (of coz too dark la! but it was really really full of stars)..and by the time we ended it was 11pm (we started at9pm anyway!). zhian was trying out with photographing star trails.....haha..with her 800m film.....but i fell asleep under the stars...tell ya..any1 could just fall asleep on tat island...peaceful and very theraputic....
day3:
got alittle disappointed coz i got my p...and couldnt put tampons in...so cun get wet(jo: i tried...PAIN????????) anyway...but i managed to stay really dry!!!!...we went fishing and it was in the swamps!! it is also on the ohter part of the island...but further in!..haha...but it was really fun...( at this time, half the camp had gone back to s'pore coz they were doctors and families)...and guess wat? it was my first time fishing..and i caught a small groupa!!!! but we set it free..hk took a pic of me and tat!!...will post it up...haha...guess tat day..only the ladies caught fishes...heehee..those caught by the men were small....
and not to mention..myfav spot of toilet emerged to be the "b ackyard" of our beach....which faces the sea..but u have to climb rocky area for abt 5 mins b4 u reach there..but i tell ya...u can shit and pee all the time u wanna..hahahahahha.....gosh..the sea is right in front of u...tat view...ahhh.....oh well
dinner was pasta...yeah...pasta! haha..with red wine and hk and i went out to the ebach 3rd time to see stars (and we all thot it might storm coz of the clouds and wind...but i was saying...it cun rain coz the clouds were kind of thin for storming clouds!) and i was right...it was just clouds...
but the stars were good still....but hk was tired out coz our canoe sort of "died" while fishing and hk and his dad had to paddle the canoe (w 3 of us) back to one of the nearby beaches....
but i tell ya....i saw 5 shooting stars tat nite!! hahaha..hk was "jealous" of me....
i lay on his shoulders and go..lalalallaa...i see shooting stars!..hahahaha.....
day4:
last day and only have the morning to burn to do the last thing, trek up to one of the tops and look out..hk and i did tat...hk led the way...tell ya..the slopes were steep and hahahaha....rocky! and stoney..we almost lost our way back..hahaha..okie..but the view? it was picturesquely breathtaking.....hk and i attempted a photo..hope it turned out way.....haha..and u see the sea all the way out...wah...nicely greenish blue...ahhhhhh....calm...and serenity is the word....
packed up, lunch and home....
till now...
i think i would like to go another time! but when hk is ard and not just tagging along with hk's parents!??..so weird...going to buy them good red wine for all the hospitality they have showered on me man! think it is really like a retreat...besides the good food? hahaha....
blurp.
going to miss the clear sea, the breeze, the sea view while toileting, the hike up and the fishing experience which might just proved to myselft tat i like fishing...
the most of all
i would miss the stars...u wont get to see those kind of clear view of the universe in singpaore..NEVER....the milky way was worth all the time....
hk: helped me thanks ur parents for everything...i would pop by soon with the red wine and some chesse and crackers..hrmm..weekday most prob! will tokto u soon...
thanks again dear for all u have done too!....i have enjoyed myself thoroughly!...and realised alot of things actually...*hugz*...
hahahah
jodarling: congrats for the global forum thingy again la..think u deserved it in a way..coz u know wast's going on and u have the passion. passions do get rewarded....no problems stay happy always ..
stephie: school started hurhur? jiayou...see ya back in school next yr! which is pretty soon.. another few mths...
tonight i will see those stars unfolding in front of my mind's eye.
BEAUTIFUL, BOY!
hahahahaha.....
*hugz*
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Thursday, August 05, 2004
i was feeling really really really terrible this whole day
PMS i tell ya, and i was sooo tired, i dozed off 4 times at work and while traveling to and fro work...grrrr
then it all changed when i started to pack for my camping trip in m'sia
things would be done:
1) snorkelling
2) trekking
3) canoeing
4) campfire
5) sleep under the stars
6) sleep under the blue sky
7) tok abt south america
8) read my life and find a dream!=o)
things i pray that wont happen
1) dUN RAIN!
2) NO P pls.......( had a hell of time jsut to try to put in that short stick.........dotdotdot)
pple who care for me...pray for me okie?
p/s: jodarling, dun think u can achieve all that in 5 yrs, unless u r filthy rich or u get a scholarship, but nothing is possible. sometimes, dun give urself too much of a timeline!
dreams know no boundaries.
pp/s:brightass...haha...yeayea..i will be happier when u get back from usa la!
and these 2 are going to suan me abt all the p/s and pp/s again....
appreciate them, they suan, dun, they "upset"....good frens are hard to satisfy...dotdotdot
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Wednesday, August 04, 2004
i miss my frens
though i just met them on sunday
maybe becoz i wasnt in the right mind to realise
but now i do
i will love u guys forever okie?
gosh..
i feel so much lightened
no more RP!!!!!!!!!!!!! and sleepy
nites pple!!!
i love u pple always...
lijie: glad i chatted with ya after this long time.
guess it was really good to see we are toking again!
hehe...enjoy ur dance!
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Tuesday, August 03, 2004
IT'S OVER!
RP is OVER!
oh well
glad
phew
watever!
dearie: no worries i am sure true love will find ya one. the guy who knows how to appreciate u, love u would come soon. dun fret. meanwhile study hard okie?
i miss u too....
oh well
hahaha..
dunno
feeling errr nothing
just done my report
so oh well
tired for a long time
really.
i need time to reflect
i need time to rest
and life goes on!
10:19 PM |
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goodness
now i remembered something andy said on sat
"u know, till now, some pple in chem eng think both of us are together?"
heh? hahaha..it is known tat my dear buddy has a gf leh...steady somemore....going 4th yr leh!
duh
and i bet at the rate i am writing abt jodarling and brightass
pple would think i am bisexual who is in love with jo and think i am together to brightass???
nope
i am not?!?!?!?
i am single and available
bish!
and i am not going to get attached to mr A, mr B or Mr c and so on...
bish....
i have tons of close guy frens.
but hahahaha....no
i am not close to them becoz i wish i can go further with them?
they are jsut great listeners, company and buddies!
*roll eyes*
and yeah!
i am 98% done with my paper!!
woohoo!!!
tomolo will complete the sumamry and print the damn thing out
jodarling, hk,kel, henky, kim: thanks for tolerating me for yesterday when i brought my laptop to our gathering and thanks brightass for giving me a comfort call, when i almost lost my data.
thanks to steph who supported me...heehee...and jiayou me all the time
i am almost out of it
left just one leg hair there..
who else was there most of the time?
haha
shaowei then....he just said i am almost free!
yipee!!!!
okie and then it is the end of some kind of torture and
a good old 4 months to think abt my life, get things done which i wanna to long ago and realise my dreams
thanks jodarling so much for giving me hope and trust in myself
i love u the most, without u, i think i am dead by now. she is my sister, my best fren, my confidante, my shelter! *hugz!
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Monday, August 02, 2004
i guess, though i wish
i've lost my touch.
i've lost something i thot it could be
i've lost myself in soemthing which i have make-belief
guess i never knew y it felt so strong.
guess i never knew y i tot it could be
guess i never knew y god played a trick on me
guess i never knew y it was meant to be
though i wish i can let it go,
though i wish i have stopped making belief
though i wish tat din happen,
though i wish i wasnt stupid enuff to believe my intuition
though i wish u would really u go away.
though i wish u had stayed
though i wish i have the courage,
though i wish i could dream.
though i wish it could be.
but it din.
just y din u stay?
i think, my intuition 3-4 yrs ago went really wrong
i was right in a way, wat life has indeed shown me a pun
afterall, i took something away which i thot it was mine
but it wasnt.
i was the outsider
i was the one to pt out the truth
i was the one tat on the road, became the passerby
i was the one who in the end, is the 3rd party
how silly am i not?
guess wat's meant to be will be.
but i never fully understand it.
and i think i will have to live with it...
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