for a world that doesnt exist
for a universe that stands still
contact:
relacon@gmail.com
|
|
| |
DAILY INSPIRATION:
this day, i pray
this day, i smile
this day, i wish u all the best!
Archives
counter
|
|
| |
wat u want to abt me?
and why?
how much can u find out,
when i dun even know
who i am?
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
Thursday, September 30, 2004
haha
NL: sexy in a subtle way? tat's me!!!thanks haha i love the top too..given to my frens as bday present actually....and we forgot to take photos!!
ARGH..hahaha..never mind next time rd...
but yeah...glad to see u again..but sorry abt being alittl dazed..coz din feel very good when i met ya...but good luck for the upcoming tests!!!!!=o)
i wish i could go USA in dec w ya to SF...but sadly...working still!!!!!!=o(
Al: haha...dropped u a very long email back! haha..urs was pretty long and haha..thanks for trying to reach me on my mobile..so sad i was away frm it at work....it would be nice to hear ur voice again!...hahha..hopefully the next time i call u, i wont get a nightmare!
steph: the photos..sigh..i think i look horrible...sigh hahaha.but itis okie.u look fine..
will send to u over msn okie? help me tlel huimin too....thanks
jo: silly us...forgot to take photos...hahahhaha....AS ALWAYS
thanks for the present....and ur precious evening...*hugz n muacks*
hahaha..
and i must go to chicago blues festival which is in 1st weekend of june in 2005..
it is a mustmustmust..
hk..read my lips
hahahaha....
=o)
1:38 AM |
|
Monday, September 27, 2004
i am so jealous of NL
which part of USA? must tell me and inform me wat to do and stuff
hahahahah
dear.....when u r done with studying
go latin america with me?
i know u wanan go korea..but we can go dance and hehehehe..know latin men!!!!
okie or not???
hahaha...
i love this jap show..so sweet..the husband and wife "DARLING...HONEY!!"
hahaha hilarious...
but it was sooo sweet..."becoz u always want to pursue ur dreams, n tat's the man i love, so y give up ur dreams for me?"
awwww the husband goes "i rather give up the job than u"
awwww
hahahaha...
then the rest of the girls went..awwwww
and the CEOs of two companies went awww
hahaa..
erps
in good mood for quite some time..
hahaha...
even kena upset today..
also happy within mins..
nuts..
maybe becoz me bday is here soon!!!
haha..
all my guy frens say happy birthday to me on the WRONG DATE...
see...these guy frens....sigh...
but at least they remembered...hahaa.....
long story
got a weird guy in dance class.
hahaha...
never mind
wat's with me and guys who r one yr younger or older.
haha..
he goes "so r u going to have a drink w us downstairs"
me "hurhur? yeaheyah..okie la!!!"
then he went "YEAH!?"
hur?
baichi....
1:33 AM |
|
Sunday, September 26, 2004
bounce..bounce
bounce..bounce
chachacha..
chachacha...
sigh...
jivejivejivejivejivejive
hahaa...
never mind
and liwei and i agree on one pt
singaporean chinese men out there hear us!
u know ballroom dancing seems gay for guys..but look on...
can u DANCE? goodnesss...EGO!??!??
it is jsut having some fun and get the GIRLS!? gosh....
i know y so many indians and chinamen love dancing and ENJOY it...
of coz i am not saying ALL singaporean men...there are of coz exceptions.
just yeah...remember...it is also a sports, ntohing wrong with it. but if u still wanna condemn it
tat's not my problem, u lose out too....dancing wiht alot of chio bus in class!!!!!!(i do admit..alot of chiobus in my class..but i am not saying that i am...really...damn chio girls and some with good bodies.....*drool*)
=oP
a state is wat it is made of
the society moulds itself
but r u game enuff to stand on ur own?
hey,
u can receive all the education in the world and nope
NUS isnt a prestigious uni, but then agian, so wat if u r in one anyway?
but u dunno how to learn
u have learnt nothing from that degree
read my lips
u r still a nobody when u dun even know who u really are, or wat u r living for?
money? condo? car? the top of the corporate ladder? that appreciation of pple ENVYING or JEALOUS of u? think harder and think again. how far can tat go, when u have lost all the heart and love for this world, in this world.
live and let urself learn and grow.
maybe u do need a wake up call.
pple can be understanding towards u
but r u in the 1st place?
every1 has his/her beauty, not by the stupid thick makeup,
or that hugo boss suit u may have
being happy and having happiness is two totally different things
remember, on the road to earn happiness, u have to be happy.
but never stop questioning and throw urself out of that box u have.
u fail not becoz u can be successful the next time round
but becoz u can grow, and learn the rope of life
=================================================
no worries, MISS NL
haaha...i am definitely more bitchy than u r.
*winkz*...
was telling ed...
"now u know y i am not attached.."
hahahah...he was luffing away....
see u on wed!!!
1:04 AM |
|
Thursday, September 23, 2004
another greeting from USA
yeah...it is my buddy!!!!! alwyn tan
hahah....the card wasnt in an orange envelope!
but the card is really cute...is a 10 yr old boy in shock
y? coz...the card greeting went "i see old pple!!!"
and stupid brightass has to add "gasp!...and tat's u!!!"
dotdotdot...some1 is still older than me....
but the most amusing sentence came as
"it's been greatn having a fren like u. *cross my f**king heart*"
hahahaha...
bish!
thanks leh!!!!
*bigbig smile* and nope i dun miss ur green van and ur singing.....hahahaha.....
no joke, think i seriously need cash to drop from sky....
1:23 AM |
|
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
hian kai dear
thanks for ur card!!! all the way from USA......
it made me cry and luff at the same time
*hugz*
love ya so much
it is a card full of care and concern and i am really touched dear...
orange envelope with a card with 3 kittens...SO CUTE!!!!meow.....
and his greetings is so full of love...thank u dear...
he went that pple care and he wanted to cheer me up!..and hahaha
i lvoe this part
"i have a nice, bright orange pillow on my chair so everytime i sit at my computer (wich is abt 80% of the time i'm awake at home) i think of you"
hahah...awwww........this is sooo sweet...damn...i am touched to tears again...
*tears....grabbing tissue* and i am serious abt me crying...
see...orange = huihui and huihui = orange!
heehee....
and the most hilarious part is
u mentioned some1???
alwyn tan...hur??????
hahahaha...
yesh..Al, u are being mentioned in the card for dunno wat kind of reason....
thanks to some1 called summerrainx........
bish....
anyway....thanks again hk...heehee...u know..everytime i think of juggling or anything to do with 3 balls...u always come to mind!!!! and i am serious abt it...
haaha...
and never forget u and ur silly grin....with tat ponytail...
argh...i miss u so badly now...watch the milky way with me again!!!!!!!
*a big big smile*
*muackz*
hope to see u next yr too in USA! i wanna u to set up bbq and bbq for me and jo!!
YUMYUM...i miss ur mocha ice blended.......
no worries...this have cheered me up very much
i know alot of pple are caring for me....including my erjie who was ridiculously worried tat i've gotten some kind of weird mental problem..but i am fine!
hahaha....i just mananged to tok myself out finally....ahhh
it feels good....
orange is indeed my colour...
though no $$ to buy tat pair of orange shoes by nike....bleah!
1:02 AM |
|
Sunday, September 19, 2004
a very interesting day indeed
finally kelvin was really surprised by the birthday party
in the end, he was like so unbelieveably stared at us
hahaha
u know, his gf is a very sweet girl and really sweet person
kelvin: u r a lucky guy, cherish her!!!!!
anyway, ur bday is on monday right? happy birthday in advance!
hahaha
and jo and i were like looking at them, all the guys are happily attached....
henky would definitely be the 1st to get married..think next yr...hahaha...
so happening!!!wait hk isnt attached...hahahha..never mind...*staring at some1*
*winkz*
never mind abt tat. long story
when jo and i were in the room, were toking abt marriage....
then i was thinking "hahaha..nownow...maybe i could be a wedding planner...."
but now! i just wanna ensure i can work in USA for tat one yr!!!!!!!!!
pray for me
tat would be my wish....
shhhhhh
u know, i went to chinatown with parents today and found alot of good food at
blk 335's hawker centre..and u know, i recalled u went chinatown and found tat place
very interesting right? i tell u, it is a very rustic place and somehow full of history and life
old and new mixed. it gives pple a sense of uniqueness compared to the city life out there
and once again, it proved that i need to travel!....hahaa...
me and my travel dreams...i wonder if any1 actually works for family like maid to get free food
n lodging? like working on farms.
think tat sounds bloody cool
=o)
1:52 AM |
|
Saturday, September 18, 2004
LATIN AMERICA
tat's where i wanna to be
brazil: carnaval ==> samba
cuba: salsa, chacha, rumba
i must grab some frens who dance to go.....then can DANCE!
still reading on more of these!!!
i wonder...
i must really finish my ballroom dancing one round for basic....
at least then..maybe when i see if i can really work in USA, after which i would travel south america....hahaha.....
TAT'S MY DREAM!!!...
and i will come back and publish a book for tat....
=o)
out of reach
-- gabrielle
Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like the fool
So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be
Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy every day
I know I will be okay
But I was So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside
And I hope that in time, you'll be out of my mind
I'll be over you
But now
I'm So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so farI never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be
Out of reach, so far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there for me...
haha...out of the rumba music ed burnt, there's this song
which is really one of my all time fav...
hahah..y? i dunno..ever since i heard it
i knew i love it!*winkz*
1:40 AM |
|
Friday, September 17, 2004
scaring to see how accurate my gut feelings are
yeahyeah..for others
and wrong for myself
but oh well
that wrong case was the 1st time and not anymore
the rest for myself very accurate
enuff said
confidence level has dropped to another low. dipping low
focus babe..focus.
1:01 AM |
|
Thursday, September 16, 2004
happy birthday Jo darling!
enjoy and may all ur dreams come true
1) get ur eng degree
2) get ur law degree
3) be mrs ___
by age 30
think it is another 8 yrs
no worries...i will ensure u will get married off b4 i go
=o)
love u always
12:28 AM |
|
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
finally..
a breakthru with my IA
yeah!
hahaha
see la...me stupid perfectionist
bishing myself..
but hahaha....
cool..........i am understanding something so tat my boss can understand
i feel sooooo good.
he says "now u know ur importance!"
YES BOSS...
hehehehe
he is such a cute boss..
hahaha...
and forum was rather queer..
but i was abt to ask this question to minister
"our current economy is highly based on our foreign investments and investments on us. as a chemical engineer, i see the prospect of the slow bloom of secondary industries. wat interests me is the expansion of JI(jurong island) where we integrated upstream and downstream industries and thus making infrastructure very accessible to our investors. however, as u have mentioned in ur speech that we are to make a better society, diversed where every1 has a place to stand, to practice wat they excel in. our litte country has only human resources, and while at this transition stage, when our specialised resources are shrinking, how are we going maintain our current status as a leader in SEA while others have copied us and exceeded our very own capabilities? and also how are we going to bring ourselves forward to balance while trying to evolutionise our society's thinking and focus?"
then again, i think i would know his answer directly
hahahaha
i think the teacher-to-be asked a stupid question which is seriously selfanswered
and she is definitely not the kind of teacher who will make much changes unless she steps out to do it.
hahaha....
but i like that guy.... suaned professor shih, our dean of students...hahahaha... a really tight slap on his face in front of minister of education.
1:36 AM |
|
Monday, September 13, 2004
i know wat i want for my bday
some1 pls give me hong bao
i need to pay it off for my inter chacha
it is 65 bucks
tat's all!!!!!!!
hrmm
hahaha
wah
think life is funny
hehehehe...
dunno
but today's weather was perfect
windy and sunny.
really soul food
passer-by
chicago, cuba, check e way.
on foot, walk
drive on, miles away.
how long to travel?
every respite, a new discovery
every scenary, unknown route.
ni hao, zai jian!
mr passer-by, where are u heading to?
captivated by the soul,
can u teach me a skill or two?
an open book so well-read,
a next chapter is born.
let me fill in the details b4 u move on,
thank u for a page.
drive along my fren,
with ur violin.
So long!
12:05 AM |
|
Sunday, September 12, 2004
i look at myself in the mirror
wat have it been so tat makes the girl in the reflection?
some pple said i am grumpy,
some pple said i am too stubborn
some pple said y do i keep banging the same wall again and again?
but all i really wish
is just take a car and travel.
take a road trip,
to find myself.
sounds stupid.
yeah i know.
but i have nothing to lose.
tat's the dream i am chasing.
chasing myself.
i tried understanding, very hard i did
i did that i hurt myself
sometimes i act selfish, but stupidly
i am jsut a stupid kid.
u can scream, cry, wail, but u have nothing at all.
when i give in so much, it is only pain and only lessons learnt i gained
i thrashed out with myself,
i tried to think wat was i chasing for?
then i lost in my own thots.
i have never lost it, i just need a breakthru.
i am doing something abt it.
i am listening to many advice.
i am just tapping to every source i have to help myself.
but maybe i just need a little luck.
oh well...andy buddy..enjoy urself in holland okie!
dun get urself attached to the coffeeshop.
hahahaha
1:22 AM |
|
Saturday, September 11, 2004
hahah
santana for chacha music
justin's senorita for chacha
hahaha
i still love j.lo's let's get loud for chacha
always get me chachachaing!
hahahaha
help....quickstep is hard.....
sigh...
salsa next week!!!
woohoo....
2:03 AM |
|
Thursday, September 09, 2004
it always feel good to meet old frens
liechuan.
and i think he is really pursuing his dreams, in a steadfast way and he never stops
u go dude!..
will support u and ur new album!
and good luck in studying in boston.
and hope ur leg will be better.
*hugz*
1:19 AM |
|
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
out with yangen, eph and xin and it was bridge and bridge. it was so good
eph was so funny..."ooi...must meet u often...cannot just meet u once in a blue moon!!"
i guess my gor cares abt me still...thanks so much.
no worries....got tat "xin" i happy liao.
as long as u happy with xin...ur mei here happy....hahah...nvm!
suddenly, life has turned very reflective
with 2 close frens having bday in sept...same as me
i started to think back all my life, wat have i done again?
and it is weird
21st bday was actually a sad one....i rememebred something very strongly was i spend the actual day alone, happily reading a book at CB and having my long-waited cheesecake.
with 2 persons calling me, and then watever happened? orh...bought dinner for my family.
hahaha...corny right..
then i thot further back....my bday party was held at a very wulu chalet and the moment i knew it was wulu, the turn out will be small. and my family would go suaning me...saying i have alot of frens...yet deep down, i told myself...how many would turn up is the more impt q...but i already appreciated those who came and stayed only a short while, coz it was relaly wulu...and those who bothered.
now i recalled alot of things, and in the end, i remembered nothing.
am one who only bother to remember happy things....sad ones are flushed out
guess becoz i felt it was a sad bday party. i din feel exactly like a birthday girl, and not happy at all. i even cried when every1 went to bed, where i was actually sitting at the living room, watching tv, listening to the sea waves. as for the reasons y i cried, shant be revealed.
but it just confirmed the kind of person u r, the lifestyle u would have to lead, and wat kind of things u have to do. and i knew it all along i can never hold my own bday parties, coz it is either i do the work, if not my family got to do it, which then i will feel really bad coz they have really done alot.
and i bet w u, my family doesnt even know me feeling so bad abt it. esp my mum. i almost wanted to give up on that idea, but thinking it was family tradition..so be it.
guess sometimes, alot of my feelings went undetected. esp those meant to be good, and true.
and alot of times i feel wronged becoz the meaning was distorted and misunderstood.
but i guess, life has been so for many yrs, and it has become a habit.
if u r wronged, forget it. they just dun understand...then let it be.
think all lead their own lives, many surround their own dreams and their loved ones.
then i guess wat my da jie said is so right. "___________" hahaha..
i wont bother to force anyway. u want to do it, u will. i wonder when would there be some1 who would actually truly bother and care and to do things to STAND UP for me. hahah....nah...dun hope and expect on such things....useless one..hahahha....coz i actually could bother to stand up on my own...but i think as yrs go by, i just swallowed liao...then blog it away.....
but heck it! this yr's bday, no big celebrations..so guess it wont be sad!..maybe i would celebrate it with family at nite...then will go take a day off on 29th to go for salsa class...pop by...hahaha
partly becoz i need to catch lily and pass her the heel protectors, owe her 1 month leh.....DIE
i dun need diamond rings,
i dun need fantastic fair skin.
i dun need to be young forever.
i just need happiness!!
hahaha....
and gosh...mr ___ some bio teacher who never taught me in acjc still can recognise me leh!
haaha..been 4 yrs liao.
WAH.....*winkz*and bloody hell
still owe PK her coffee bean
1:05 PM |
|
open ur eyes
-- alter bridge
Looking back I clearly see
What it is that's killing me
Through the eyes of one
I knowI see a vision once let go
I had it all
Constantly it burdens me
Hard to trust and can't believe
Lost the faith and lost the love
When the day is done
Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one
On and on we stand alone
Until our day has come
When they open their eyes
And realize we are one
I love the way I feel today
But how I know the sun will fade
Darker days seem to beW
hat will always live in me
But still I run
It's hard to walk this path alone
Hard to know which way to go
Will I ever save this day
Will it ever change
Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one
Still today we carry on
I know our day will come
When they open their eyes
And realize we are one
Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one(its hard to walk this path alone
hard to know which way to go)
Will they open their eyes
and realize we are one(lost the faith and lost the love when the day is done)
Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one
i love this song, when the lead singer goes woahhh in the middle while guitar is playing
i tell ya, this is called soul music, it is the kind when u stand at the end of cliff and spread ur arms
feel the life blowing thru u and then u open ur eyes, and see it all.
GREAT SONG!
again, any1 found it can tell me and send to me..thanks!
1:36 AM |
|
Monday, September 06, 2004
i am already dying of diabetics
really man
jo and her hk, go "i love u" to each other
and have a fren who is...wah lau...soooo SWEET to her bf.
sheesh......can save me???
hahahahah....
happiness comes from within, cherish
remember to throw it out..if not really die of excess sugar....
hahahahhaha....
brrrr...
11:51 PM |
|
Saturday, September 04, 2004
if i aint got u
-- alicia keys
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
No one to share, with no one who truly cares for me
You, you
If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby
if any1 can get hold of the piano score for this piece..i will be utmost grateful!
i want to play it on the piano and sing.
*winkz*
another step closer to jazz singing..hahahah
the next one would be the look of love
awwww
1:42 AM |
|
Friday, September 03, 2004
PMS is bad
but i survived tonight.
eating watching tv, taking a good break from dancing for 2 whole nite straight
3-4 hrs each
and i realised how come i am so laid back?
i never was
u have to fight
he and she are right
fight!
now comtemplating if i should take up tat thing..hrmm
haha when time comes
jodarling:thanks for enlightening me abt the letters. dunno
i guess life is weird. we all need guidance dun we?
we forgot wat we wanted in the past, and becoz we met mishaps now and then, we lost our direction and focus. simplicity had lead us to who we are, and now it is time to remember and hold on, hold fast, hold out
www.pathyway-to-peace.com
get ur piece of peace..
it is very meaningful
i love the one one joy and love, and forgiveness, patience..
haha..everything.
now to relac...
11:18 PM |
|
12:21 AM |
|
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
collateral
adj.
Situated or running side by side; parallel.
Coinciding in tendency or effect; concomitant or accompanying.
Serving to support or corroborate: collateral evidence.
Of a secondary nature; subordinate: collateral target damage from a bombing run.
Of, relating to, or guaranteed by a security pledged against the performance of an obligation: a collateral loan.
Having an ancestor in common but descended from a different line.
n.
Property acceptable as security for a loan or other obligation.
A collateral relative.
all u could do is put down the fixed deposit and u would have ur dream
what was stopping u?
i wonder
i never stopped some1 completely from his or her dream
yet y did i stop mine?
how stupid i was then.
but now, i guess i still have time to give myself a 2nd chance
andy:dunno wat to say abt u not able to settle coz of ur brother. if a woman loves u, she would have to learn to bear with it. afterall, he is ur kin, and makes him her kin in a way. u will meet tat girl, as i have said, go hunt for social worker or wat heehee...2 setbacks arent tat bad i guess.
u said it, life goes on. but believe it would be good. u know it will la
i have been thinking alot alot alot. dunno why suddenly everything came back again.
i guess, i am confused once again. i need to slowly grab hold of my emotions.
no more allowing it to flow too easily!...
since i dunno wat i can do next, i shall jsut enjoy watever i have now.
IA, dance, free time.
no fret my girl, everything will sort them out themselves as time goes by.
believe, and the world will believe.
hrmm...
i just love this song
and i dunno y?!?.
hahaha
the lyrics and baby, this song rocks.
someday
12:17 AM |
|
|
|
| |
|
|
|
