Friday, August 26, 2005
1) how much it is to enjoy a Mac meal alone, just eating.
2) how much it is to sleep in peace, without waking up in a shock to the alarm clock
3) how much it is to able to get rid of the bloatedness of the stomach.
life's simplest and happiest pleasures are just eat sleep and shit.
but i cant even enjoy these 3?
not as though i am TRYING to, but i realised, i dun reallly like to eat anything
i dun really get sleep well, and i cant move my bowels well too.
1) everything i try to do, being judged by others is fine.
but when it comes to the stage of overwhelmingly heavy, pls, let me run away
2) i dun rob pple's happiness away from them. if i am the cause of their unhappiness. coz in the end i will blame myself for other's downturn.
pls, let me walk away
3) all i want to do now, is to dance and swim.
that's the only comfort i have and all i have.
really so pls, dun even rob away my only joy and tool to destress
4) the stronger a front u have, the weaker u r inside.
tat's me coz i am an extremist. but it doesnt matter, u wont know either! =oP
so pls, dun break my bluff.
5) those dreams i have weaved like trying to take masters overseas or even work overseas, i knew deep inside, i would never never have them
i know. then pple go "y so discouraging?" or maybe i am jsut being truthful to myself. so pls dun deny ur own doubts too. they are something u have to live with
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Thursday, August 25, 2005
i really wanna cry
no 1 to tell yet again
i am so stressed at work
i cun finish the quotations on time
but even if i OT, no 1 to sign to verify!
wat the fuck
i think i am jsut going to OT tomolo
yeh, to OT on a friday? y?
coz i am super stressed out by my boss
n it is not good when u r pmsing
i am already in down mood, then kena stressed
hahahaha...can cry
oh well.
i cant take it as easy as PK
really
god.
and it is just my 2nd week
things u need to read up,
u cant bring it OUT of office
u have to stay in office
so i think i iwll do quotations outside office hours so tat i can read things up during office hours
i HATE taking over pple's projects
it sucks.
oh never mind
i will just face the trumpet tomolo!
dum dee dum
i need to dance
but i am so tired.
and i am hungry w/o any appetite
there's no food at home!
and i am not even complaining to any1 except my dear blog
give me a big hug, blog!!!!!!!
6:35 PM |
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005
7am every weekday!
can u believe it?
i am dying
and it is thursday!!!!!
gosh
i am going for a meeting at exxon somemore.
wah lau
i am oging to learn spanish
hahah
cant chio bu not be attached?
hahahaha...
faintz.
but how, do i look like a superficial girl?
i am totally amused.
w/o tat "actually happiness or no happiness, u know buddhism puts everything to nothingness" i am just one superficial girl?
just shut him up!?
and sooner or later, i am his relacon
faintz.....
and some1 calls ah girl! then another one calls me xiao mei
faintz
piangz!
11:34 PM |
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Monday, August 22, 2005
hahaha...
today was a day where i chatted a bit bit with peggy.
then i realised something very interesting
was toking to her abt one of our collegues
she is pretty and fair. but apparently she is unattached
coz apparently, she said "hard to find one tat suits"
then i was brought back looking to the 2 guys sitting on my right
and remmebered i was being "bombarded" by both of them
okie both of them, 28, single and very available
both arent tat tall, and hrmm
okie never mind.
i would prefer jayce over lawrence.
but anyway, i wont say much coz i just knew them for a week
yeh..they were like new. i never met them while i IAed
anyhow, i was just toking to them, and they went "attached right?" while we were on the mrt. then i gave them a look and a shrug "no?"
then both of them just gave each other a look. hahahaha...
tat's not the pt.
it went on to something that happened b4 the mrt ride
tat we saw our big boss wife's photo. a very pretty and bubbly lady who used to be a sia stewardess. peggy told us, she is a very chatty and both of them are very comical couple. they have a daughter
then lawrance went "wah i am already looking up to my boss, and now he is my idol...good career, good family, pretty wife!!! i look up to him and he is my teacher"
then in my head, i was thinking, yeh who doesnt want a good career with a good looking and good personality partner with a happy family?
but who are we to fight for...
so i was toking abt this thing to my da jie and e first thing she said was so true
"he is of tat certain calibre to have such hopes? dun aim for things too high tat u cant even see"
exactly
i told my sister, the big boss is some1 who has a very acute charisma.
yeh i admit i am in awe of his conviction.
no i am NOT in love, but i totally respect and agree to y he is in the position he is in now it is not just his experience but his actions n char tat command respect from others. thouhg he speaks really loudly....
i guess, things take time and alot of fate and luck to certain extent
and all in all, it takes character and conviction.
to speak truthfully, i think lawrence would need more of conviction to excel.
personal opinion, not being judgmental. just a thot and analysis of his character.
i dunno if i have a bad judge, but i am still analysing his char on the whole n tat's wat he is giving me for the past week.
am i asking too much? hahaha...no. all i cna say is, he has talents too
he plays the band, the bass. which is something good. he has a good hobby
though he smokes alot too, but i guess, fallacy is something humans do
as long as he stays away from me when he is smoking or just came back from a smoke.
so far so good.
hahaha...
and dun try to matchmake me
he goes "u watch soccer? u need a bf who plays soccer isnt it?" and no, i am not interested in u too...but i hardly watch these days..just becoz i went "baros plays so muhc better for his country than in liverpool" n every guy who watches soccer nods his head. hur?
then i go "no, i need a man who dances."
they all look at me with a weird look? hahahahaha
it's true!!!!!!!i also cant play soccer. he plays i watch? then he must be one who must be able to take my critisms. if not, i dun think any guy cna tolerate me.
jayce stupidly tried to pair me with yangquan who is like 35? and hahha i knew him even b4 they did...dot dot dot...
not interested! BGRs not my cup of tea eh. hahahaha very troublesome one.
relacon already head big big. urself inside head even bigger.
think work is good.
=o)
and i think gilbert's fren is a nice chap! he is tall, cute and tanned...
but wat's more impt. he is ZENNNNNN....
=o)
11:24 PM |
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Sunday, August 21, 2005
pretty amusing to read my cousin's emails
oh well
hahaha i just love it when i ask stupid questions
damn.
when is he coming back?! hahahahhaa....
waiting till wednesday then.
bleah!
hahahahahhaha....
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one who skips and bounces like a child, would u trust tat person?
he was the one who've got shot 3 times in the head.
would you actually pity him?
the pathway leads to a park.
under the moonlight, it shines with a yellowish tint.
the gravels rolled as the car slowed itself out of the park
pity,
there isnt a camera to take that picture
the horizon ahead, met only the dark sky, shrouded with orange clouds.
the road seemed endless.
kicking to 3rd gear, the car accelerated with gravels hitting against the car.
a nice symphony.
then, the symphony had eneded its postlude
hahahaha.
yeh, out to the main road.
nothing but tar which turned into road.
the barricades slowly widened, the car eased alittle.
it is never nice driving through a tight road.
makes one very nervous and claustrophobic.
the gear has shifted to 5th.
the black car drove past the scattered leaves on the road, driving them into a whirl.
a sigh heaved. the tired shoulders slacked.
behind the wheels, were nothing more special, nor extraordinary.
plain simple. plain questionable.
whose hands were those?
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listening to some songs i have long forgotten
i realised how much i enjoy driving slowly down an empty road, listening to nice chill out music.
and till this day, i have come to realise, things i worry, things i think too much
things i question, things i even bother to think twice, things i keep to myself, things i told others, things i want pple to know, things i refuse to say, things i want to change, things i want to say the same.
they are just things, for i, for me.
and no more for others, for u.
at work, my mind is off somewhere, where i just have the thirst to learn.
taking in pple's comments, abt who i am and watever i say
i care less.
but i learn and doubt CERTAIN things. but heck wat it can be
but it is differnet when i am out of tat office.
i question. i doubt.
in a day like this, wat comes thru my tired mind?
nothing. i just wnt to continue to work, or do something
not to stay at home and watch tv and daze
yeh maybe once in a while, but not always.
i am indeed an extrovert
i am not them
i love to stay home only when i am home alone.
i cant sit still for long
but i always love to sit and watch.
i am always doing something.
i love who i am, and always think, at the pt of my walk ard singapore
i would always tell myself "look there, it is so beautiful, and tat piece of sky is urs!"
but wat happens when i am no longer there, it disppears.
i wish i can learn to hold thots longer and keep faith in them
i am walking away right now.
like how craig david would sing.
"i'm walking away.."
i am not walking away from responsibilities
but i am walking away from myself
with myself.
"i'm walking away...."
12:09 AM |
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Saturday, August 20, 2005
i even wonder if i am even fit to be toking abt myself again
hrmm
i have to admit, sitting at the esplanade at nite n picnic is a very good idea
but somehow, today, i cun seem to enjoy it at all.
there i was with chris and toking abt family stuff
i think,
i have always been such a stupid person u know?
and no matter how much i would like to change to be better,
it seems i am on the wrong wrong track, once again.
and now, i have decided to shut up
really shut up
u have a choice to judge me in any way and any kind of ideas u can have
or u can just simply ignore me.
but somehow i just cant ignore myself.
i saw tat reflection on bus 99.
i saw tat ugly and unapproachable aura/look on the face
dun be mistaken. i am toking abt myself
i am not judging anyone but myself.
it is weird how i look at myself and pple ard me
i have becoming a more and more childish person
superficially, yeh, alot of pple who just knew me would always go
"no? hur?...*toking amongst themselves" but so wat?
i would love to add, "coz i am very unapproachable/unlikeable/scaring"
but i just smile and smile
there isnt any pt of explanation to many things in life.
like being who i am? i get myself in deep shit, really. but nonetheless,
i am just being me. i never feel so conscious abt myself, till i see pple's reaction
then i realised, pple take me too seriously when i am just speaking my mind and i dun have underline meaning, maybe also, in relacon's dictionary, passing remarks
then i realised, pple take me too lightly when i am toking seriously and all they think i am just being melodramatic, crazy or anything along tat line.
then i realised, at this pt of time, or rather at this stage, i stop and think, then i stop toking, stop commenting, stop giving suggestions when needed. i simply keep quiet. coz there's no pt going further. and becoz of this warped thot of mine, i just refused to continue to tok any more.
then i realised, all these thots would then exist only in my blog as words.
meaningless words.
words that meant so much to me, yet nothing, nothing at all, to a blog
then i realised, i would start blasting soothing music, start dancing to the beats and then get myself to watch tv before going to bed.
then i realised, i slipped into the state of rejection, refusal, denial and self-indulgent. symntons of PMS? possible, but who cares.
tat reflection, it was tat reflection i saw in the glass, tat scares me
i wonder if my eyes were playing tricks on me. well, one can go, it is the mind that's playing tricks on your eyes. i saw her, sitting there.
the madness, knowing wat to do, eyes have dimmed. but tat's allright.
i am not tat particular bothered coz i am tired with my new contacts.
how abt tat feel i get from the aura from the face, body etc?
as the piano plays along, with soothing "the way u look tonight" sings,
my vibes arent sensing the calming effects nor my heart feels lighthearted.
only gibberish words from voices up there, beside there ring in my ears.
my foolish heart, lovely, just stay the same.
coz i love u just as u r.
enuff of personal time.
too much for me to bear and it is well passed 1am
i am one, who fears insecurity, not instability.
i am one, who faces insecurity, becoz i tend to love instability.
if u think they are the same or related, then i guess, i wont bother to try to explain myself this time, tat would be the same words in relacon's dictionary.
i can lead something tat wont last forever.
but i must at least, know something, regardless of size, imptance is there.
however, i cun get out of this weird cycle.
till then.
1:07 AM |
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Friday, August 19, 2005
oh well
i think i might have to postpone my masters dreams to a later age
i wonder if 28 is sitll possible
finally sit down and did some calculations
if not i would die
think i wont have enuff money to repay the loan + interest in 5 yrs time
unless in 3 years time, my salary hits 3k lor
hahahaha
as if
oh well
shrugs!
i am feeling super shitty today!
time to sign off and zz
hopefully my work would make me a better and happier person.
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005
finally got down to blog
work has been great. i have alot to learn and realised it is pretty exciting after my big boss gave me (n other 3) a 3 hr session of crash course. and imagine i NEVER even yawn
coz he gave a very interesting, interactive course and i am able to interact and voice out my ideas and stuff
cool
and he treated us to raffles marina lunch...though asian fare but haha...wah..tat's place is pretty
anyhow, every1 seems to be overtiming! hahahaa...as long as i dun OT on monday i am fine...coz i wanna go for jive technique
hahaha..and so cute, this girl, jolin and this guy chee chiau whom we suaned last yr abt being together...and they dun even know each other well at all..
guess wat, when i started yesterday, found out they were together for like 4 months?
gosh....suan and say can make a couple? COOL man!
hahahaha
wah..alot to say but dunno where to start.
orh, girl! just to say something, n u know i am toking abt u,
dun worry too much la. i guess, life is just weird lor. for ur case, i guess, u guys tok out, so give each other time and space to grow on ur own lor. afterall, u guys are still frens right?
no worries. give urself a break from bgr too. and enjoy life! who knwos, u guys would have a chance to be together la. i know it is hard coz u cant think of any1 else but him, and somehow he also like, but i think, timing is just not in ur favour?
cheer up! =o)
heheh..sometimes i find both of u ridiculous! faint. still keep thinking and thinking but just dun want...heh?
hahaha....and yeh, since u cant accept any other guy now, coz u just kept saying,
cant find a better one, but wat to do? hehe..go and know more pple la!
*bleah* i love ya lots babe!
and argh.
stupid!!!!! hahahahaha...
never mind
hehehehhehehehehe
feeling better and definitely with a purpose
shhhhhhh...
9:12 PM |
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Monday, August 15, 2005
cool. in less than 9 hours, i would at my new job!
hahahaha...
cool hur?
hrmm
though not VERY excited, think it's my IA company, with familiar env
it is still refreshing
i am, finally, starting my working life
not having much expectations or anything at this moment
just wish i could sleep early hehehe which is asking TOO MUCH of myself
hahaha.
oh well...
i hope it is an okie start to something different.
it is stressful but i guess, i am just up to take it as it comes!
yeh.
zen
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Saturday, August 13, 2005
siao liao
hahahahha
i better leave the studio as quietly as possible
"okie huihui, ur paso, tat ________ show the whole class..."
"see her arms, tat's the correct frame"
piang...and then, the whole class stares at me and look on...staring at my arms...
wah lau..somemore auto gear.
hahahahahaha...
never mind
think think think
do i look like a secondary school kid?
do i look gullible?
i think so
heck it anyway
dummmmmm deeeeee duuummmmmm
11:55 PM |
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hehe..will post photos!!!! soon i hope
went singing and eating
blurp and hawker food is the best!!!!!!
=o)
anyway,
finally reaching the day when i will start working
dun feel much, just like this.
but it is interesting to know many things
i realised, in life, alot of things stay where they are, and till bigger things and better things come along, then u start to move on and let go.
i pray that life would be better and thus allowing me to move on and let go of things i should! from there i would learn how big this sky is and how i would have a piece of it somewhere! then dreams do come true, dont they?
*singing somewhere out there*
*smile*
1:33 AM |
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Thursday, August 11, 2005
it is the last thursday when i can slack at home, waiting to go to dance studio
i wonder if i have many chances to go there next time.
but i am not wondering tat hard.
been very tired these few days.
i just want to lie in bed and not wake up at all.
but there's a new start somewhere.
and keeping in mind wat i am and where i wish to head to.
and keeping the last strength in me alive.
it was only yesterday, when i began to realise, there are more things than just keeping things to urself.
and sobbing quietly, has been very detrimental to one's health.
i love to say, and inspiring myself further, to do things i never try b4
and i am to stay on track.
take care of the bigger things in life, then fill it up with the little things
this is such a strong sentence and how beautiful it sounds
the sun still shines, the wind still blows.
i feel i am alive when i breathe.
and i pray hard, i am given amber strength to pick myself up once again.
and take things in stride.
my dream now, is to be able to work overseas for a few years, continue my studies (if my path allows) and able to fend for myself completely.
maybe tat's how i would feel alive, and more useful.
at least, if i am able to take care of myself, would i be able to take care of others.
leticia means joy in spanish
i like this name
4:41 PM |
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hahahaha...
i just couldnt take it once again
oops... sorry buddy...hehehe....din wanna call ya but i was really really really upset and e first person who came to mind was u
but really i am fine now. =o)
had a tok with mum and da jie. who taught me to ignore and just take things are they are
nothing is wrong and i am not tat useless or worthless, i hope
i am really lucky
i have family and frens who love me
and gilbert yeh, i know. u love me no matter how mnay bad pts i have... thanks for staying till 3am to chat with me and got me luffing nonstop! hahaha.
u know, i think i luffed too hard, tat i could only remember the 2nd part of the sentence u said "...and i will love u abundantly"
and yeh, alwyn buddy, thanks so much again! i really appreciate u loving me too and forever tolerating me and my hahaha...sobs. =oP
and i thank my family for loving me so much.
my da jie told me, pple who are willing to stay with u thru bad times,
are only ur family, and those who still stand by u when u need help and never judge u.
i think i am lucky to have found them, havent i?
hehe...as gilbert said
LOVE, is all it takes.
and the bigger things in life tat are always ard me.
i love you too
=o)
all of u, with all my heart
and will make sure ur love wont go to waste!
*big smile and big grin*
12:42 AM |
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Tuesday, August 09, 2005
you're beautiful
-- james blunt
My life is brilliant
my life is brilliant
my love is pure
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true,
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As I walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you
la la la la, la la la la, la la la la laaaaaa
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
i love this song when i first heard it
gosh, i almost cried... it is so sad
but sometimes, i wonder, if he could just take his chance and do something abt it
hahahaha..
hrmm...dunno...
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Sunday, August 07, 2005
gosh...must be a small world!!!
hahahahah coz, i met yumiko in orchard again!!!
gosh...hahahaha..she is such a cute girl, kawaiiii
hahahaha
did i spell it right?
anyway, she caught hold of my hand and go "lets meet up and go shopping!"
hahahah
of coz, how can i bear to reject such a pretty girl's request
hahaha...and pls i am not a lesbian
but it is so nice to have such a frenly girl ard! hahaha....
and tseyang found himself lost in her eyes
hahaha
oh well...
alwyn, i think ur cup came at the right time.
i would have a nice "make your own damn dinner" cup sitting on my desk at work hahaha
and today, on my way to orchard, i took out the book "a taste of freedom" lent by gilbert to me
and i always read one chapter at a time.
today was on, the middle way within
how silly sometimes, and how lucky sometimes, books like this wake u up
it tok abt, the chase of happiness which always bring abt unhappiness
or how happiness and unhappiness come hand in hand
and silly me, din realise, peace is never abt happiness or unhappiness.
peace is just peace
happiness is a desire, a contentment to life, a path seeks its security
with longing and the desire, gives rise to its birth and thus its death
therefore the cycle of suffering..
how silly
and how blinded i am
i have to learn to accept both happiness and unhappiness and then alleviate both to attain peace.
weird
but it just struck me straight, left me standing in the mrt, staring, and sighing
n then understanding.
thank god.
now, it is time to practice it.
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Saturday, August 06, 2005
this is a day when i meet new pple i love to hang out and i would say, frenly and totally at ease.
we do have alot of fun?!
i have busted almost 500 bucks on my contacts and new pair of specs which suppose to make me more pro looking
SHHEEEEESSSSSHHHHH
met up with buddy alwyn tan! miss this dude like hell hahaha and he is back with a new dream in hand. hahaha....okie la..mr lawyer wannabe. muahahahha
anyway, met up 1stly, alwyn and his very frenly UNC frens. with this jap girl! yumiko! she is a really nice girl who is here for exchange in nus for a year. hehehe...
though there was a little difficulty in communication, i would say she has quite a good command of english for a japanese! really. and cute too..doesnt look very jap
heehee...willl bring her ard and meet her maybe in school next week! haahha..
she said "go shopping together!" wah lau...dear girl, i just busted 500 bucks can u believe it ah?!
met up with my very cute girl, suli!! yeh yeh..got her msn but sadly, she is going back to australia tomolo. and hahaha..she is hoping to work in usa or aussie! way to go girl. hope u stay at either place and i can visit u!!!
ivan too, hahaha..well i am sure ivan would enjoy teaching haha...gosh, he should go overseas too.
met up with yilin and sab too! and hehehe..so cute... we were just sitting beside the table of alywn and gang. hahaha.
we were like, discussing wat we can do when ellen gets back to singapore and have our gathering!!! hahaha.. think after tomolo, we can declare the MGS singles' club hahaha. i think it would be mooncakes and chocolate fondue, maybe with cheessseee. hahaha
erps.. *winkz*
anyway, met up with choonie too. haha..yeh...gazilion pple u must add.
she was feeling fan i guess..hehehe...but i told her, u must learn to see urself clearly in the mirror then move on with life. though i am not in a very good position to tell her wat to do, coz i believe, choices in one's life is made solely by urself. but i wish her all the best!
i am in a great mood.
really.
coz meeting pple who i love alot and love chatting with
this is part of my life which makes me happy.
and i would learn to appreciate and cherish it!
think short skirt with heels make one look very confident eh.
but pls, i dun think i would like to try modelling.
hahahaha...do i look like a model?! i have such a big face!
suddenly i feel sad for her, really.
but i guess, i would just say one thing to her,
he is just not tat into u la babe.
if so, he wouldnt be trying so hard to deny all his acts!
yeh, he is such a bastard! leading u on with all the actions...
feeling as though he is so into u
brace up babe. u can move on! and u will! =o)
12:30 AM |
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Friday, August 05, 2005
1) wat are my strengths?
2) wat are my weaknesses?
can u pt it out to me?
email me pls?
got a job
not as if i am really excited abt it
guess, i need to keep faith and have tat fighting spirit in me
i need to resparkle it
give me strength to stand up alone once again.
i want to stand.
i must learn not to look back
but look forward
i must do the things i promise myself i want to achieve
and shouldnt be discouraged when i meet failure.
i must learn to take things in stride
i must learn not to try too hard
i must learn not to let unhappy things affect me, esp those i am sensitive to
i must learn not to let things tat grow to be part of me, kill me
i must learn to stand up tall.
to stand on my own
and see my life, as something i can be, if i just learn to dream and hope
a road chosen, i must learn to walk it with confidence and positivity
the sun will shine, the stars will twinkle.
if i learn to appreciate them
smile, and i realise, the world will smile with me
i must learn not to be self centred.
i must learn to breathe
i must learn to walk
i must learn to chill
i must learn to be human
i must learn to take things easy
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Thursday, August 04, 2005
decided to accept the job offered by sulzer (will call tomolo and go for a good "makeover")
pray hard it wont be a bad decision or watsoever
somehow, i was right in e end (wait...not really the end..really)
but mum said,
remembered tat time u were posted there and u were not happy.
and now, u get a job offered by them at the end of the day
blessing in disguise as she would say
sometimes, it is still too early to say
u never know wat u r going to meet till the race is over.
hahahaha..and i know some1 is in for a surprise when he gets back!
dum dee dum
2:49 PM |
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i wonder,
i think i should start reading chris' book
the emptiness came back once again.
the purpose of life
of MY life
the meaning to my life.
the things i should do, and i can do.
wat are they?
and who am i really?
really,
tell me
12:26 AM |
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Wednesday, August 03, 2005
i think this is backdated but it doesnt matter
i think i have seen this book somewhere and i am going to get it
it is utterly amusing
oprah show then was on greg behrendt's book
he is jsut not tat into u
and it is amazing
hahahha....i would like to go and get this book soon
hahahaha..soonsoon.
remember girls, if u ever start to find excuses for a guy, not calling u for dates blahblah, HE IS JUST NOT TAT INTO U!
dun waste ur time and beauty on men like this
coz if a man is into u, he will call as promise, always ask u out anything he is free and EVEN HE IS BUSY, he will make time to call u and just to listen to ur voice
simple as tat
but the pt is, understand men, they dun tell u straight in the face tat
HE IS JUST NOT TAT INTO U.
but he is just trying to make u feeeeel better.
but bullshit.
just rememeber.
if he doesnt give much shit abt u, so wat if he asks if u r okie, or how have u been?
he is ust being as a fren
and tat's abt tat!!!!!
hahahaha.
i think this is so freaking interesting
the cold truth sets u free
and tat's the whole pt
dun waste time on a guy who doesnt waste time on u.
tat's all
hahahah
i love oprah winfrey!
just listening to all those girls who went onto the show to ask greg for opinions.
he's only answer was
HE IS JSUT NOT TAT INTO U
and it is true.
hahahahha..
so funny
his bottomline is
if a guy is crazy over u, he will just make time for u no matter how busy he is blahblah
so, u deserve better if a guy doesnt give a shit
hahahahhaa...
raise the bar, and u will meet ur match
coz guys love challenges....
hrmmmm
remember, never date a guy who has never ask u out for the 1st date.
2:01 PM |
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i wanted soooo much to blog something inspirational today
but i cun find that either
but hahaha christina is coming to my house to make wuxiang tomolo
hahaha
so funny
and i realised it is august already
time to start looking for jobs intensively
dealing with the set of instability and questionable life ahead
wat am i worrying abt?
nothing, just not a job tat i am crazy abt
i give another no timeline
bleah!
but never mind, i am looking forward for some1's homecoming!!!!!
i miss him sooo much!!
yeh!!!! he is back on friday! lalalalalala...technically thursday nite...
but hahahah when can i see him!? i miss him so much.
ooi, alwyn, did u get anything for me? hehehe
i LOVE PRESENTS!
goodness, im turning mad.
12:53 AM |
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Tuesday, August 02, 2005
god
this is good stuff
i think girls should read this to learn the traits of men and stuff
and no, i am not saying i am promoting premarital sex or watsoever
i am just thinking this shit is good for education purposes
realy, read it well and u will learn alot girls.
not to get urself horny or wat,
but understand.
to men
there's only sex, sex and sex
yet to women,
there's alot to sex and love.
but then she is a londener.
dun worry. hahaha...but i have read pple singaporeans who wrote such shit too
much more emotional and less educational
but this is really goood stuff
and not to forget
she writes in good english and i love it.
orh hahaha..and dun be shy abt ur sexuality!
it is abt u and him. (okie lets be more conservative, yeh and i am toking to u, married couple)
i love the english pple.
the accent and english are just too perfect to be true.
enjoy!
girlwithaonetrackmind
2:15 AM |
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sometimes i feel very disappointed in many things
especially frens.
but i guess,
if pple dun want to treat u as fren anymore
like trying to draw a line b/w u once again,
then i really have nothing else to say.
seriously
i think i have made my stand already.
wat is this is this n wat is tat is tat
i wont be bothered by it.
if u continue to do this, fine, go ahead!
and be who u want to me then
coz i realised, i respect ur decision
u want to run away, can i stop u?
forget it.
it is so hard even to maintain frenships.
so i guess, shrugs
who tell me to be a sentimental fren ah?
stupidity rules!
anyway, went to ntu dance club welcome tea
and watched the german couple performed
woohoooooo....
hahaha..and danced abit here and there.
and the security lady guard was so sweet to me
"u dance really well and hot esp with those heels."
hahahah thank u ah lady *blushing like mad now*
n liwei and i were instigating her to join too hahaha..
she claimed she is too old...but i tell u, she would be HOT too u know.
oh well...dancing isnt how old or young u r
it is how u feel abt urself pple
feel and enjoy dancing, and it will natually put a smile on u and ur partner's face
*smilez*
and naturally, u will just look at the partner one... hahahaha...regardless how bad or ugly he can be hahahaha...
oops
12:36 AM |
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Monday, August 01, 2005
i need more mahjong
but not pimples on my face!
overnite mahjong is never good
zzzzz
u have sexy lips eh!
really???
*muack*
blinkblink
sigh..how come all my frens have alot of interviews and not me?
i wonder if i ever get a job again.
hrmmmm
wat else do i want to say?
nothing i guess.
just tat the sun is coming out finally.
great timing! i can go swimming soon!
lalalalalala
i am so bored.
think i will just watch tv, eat sleep and read book
i need a job..time to look ...
hahahaha....but u know, okie.
i will wait for buddy to come back hahaha..
watching oprah show is something very comforting yet inspirational
and it is so true
we, girls rule the world
i see the courage in women to stand tall for their beliefs, their hopes and their strength to move on, and strive to live happier than b4
and i think, i promise myself, i would go and watch oprah live in chicago
if any girl who lacks the motivation or strength to carry on. do watch her shows
though the shows i get at home are backdated like in dec? hahaha
but it is still good.
imagine urself, lacking the strenght to carry on. u feel so tired, u feel so lost and u feel there's nothing in this world tat gives u the next move to carry on,
just remember something, there's some1 out there who has been thru the same thing or similar situations, they can give u the support and understanding and becoz of their presence, it says so much abt the inner strength tat one can have and all u need is to find it and bring it out.
u go girls!
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