Sunday, December 31, 2006
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Saturday, December 30, 2006
interesting, i have just got back from my boss' farewell dinner cum drinking session.
things i have realised are more than i have expected
1) my boss hahaa, does have his concerns moving out of sg, but this is not surprising for he is indian, trying to survive in china environment.
2) how some colleagues are really funny. and how some colleagues do have actions that made pple ponder deeper.
3) "boss is still boss" is the sentence that rings in my mind, constantly.
4) indeed, i have started to grown and still LEARNING to grow.
5) can sense my boss has alot to say to me, and how much he would miss me. somehow, i have no idea y. am i tat enduring? hahaha after bitching at him about how he calls me in the morning and NAGS
anyhow, time comes and goes, goes and comes. we have many pple, things to meet and learn.
i kind of think, pple are just a pain in the ass. but sometimes, without pain, you really dun realised u r alive hur?
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the WRX colleague has an interested pointer for a few ladies he is closer to in the office.
and happened, he was toking about the kind of guys, we young, single and available ladies would like.
it is amusing, that how he would comment on huishan and my taste. haha.yeh and huishanis like sister to me, her surname is lee (li ) too.
as peter told me and huishan we were amazed at the sharp accuracy he has.
i will just tok about my portion, so dear frens, tell me if u agree with him.
1) i think you are the SPG kind. but on the more conservative side, for a SPG. or most likely, prefers a man of open mindedness, more ang moh pai
(personally, i will like asian, chinese. would love some1 to share my roots with me, but yeh i agree on the open mindedness, ang moh pai)
2) you need to engage in conversation, which means u need a man of high educatiion or wisdom. he has to be knowledgable. preferably with high educational level and would like to have a man to know alot and can tell u many things.
( kow! i love intelligent men for sure! i like if he is able to engage in maybe intelligent topics with me though i am really like know nothing hahahahaha....as for high educational level, eh...hahaha...marry wat? a prof? dot dot dot...joanna, some1 like your dad eh!)
3) he has to be outgoing but like, open to party, but not the SPORTY type. he is outgoing but not the into sports type. must able to enjoy company of like. coz u will like he to like the stuff u appreciate.
(haha..if he meant able to RACE or buy fast car like himself, yeh...he is right. but i told him, i would love my man to be able to dance!!!! hahaha...kow, i am making my life hard, no wonder i am bfless haha)
4) he cant be too tall, but maybe lean. as in, must see eye level kind. too tall u dun like. so in the end, slightly taller than you by abit bit lor
( i went hur? like LL eh? not too tall but skinny? then no, slightly beyond it, then i ponder, haha...yeh i love my man not too tall, i hate straining my neck and wanna him to see my eye level. but as for meat, i think i want my man to have meat! nice to hug heeheehee)
by the way, closer frens would ALREADY known the above, but haha, he doesnt really know eh.
i think he has said one more point, but i just cun recall wat he has said 2 days back. haha
so i sat there pondering, who is the guy who at least fit into at least 2 or 3? ahha..i think i have a couple. and really just 2. but abit far fetched eh. hahaha
chinese adage (just got to know this word today) "no fish, got prawn also good"
hahaha....
eh. hahah...think my net would then need to be cast further and bigger hehehehe
okay i am really tired and off to bed after like 3 cups of beer hahaha
tiring!
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Friday, December 29, 2006
sometimes, it is always the strong feeling of being left out, that makes one quiet.
no becuase you dun wish to talk, it is because of the following possibilities
1) you feel you are not taken seriously
2) you are intimidated by the cultural shock
3) you are taken aback by the way pple talk or act
4) you feel you are not going to fit in
5) you feel whether you say a thing, wont make ANY difference
6) you know it is just a one way discussion, or rather no conversation has ever taken place.
7) you just feel freaking tired.
8) you just jolly well know, you just dun feel like talking.
9) you just dun want to be judged and put down AGAIN
10) you are just dazing and dun bother to pay attention.
the above 9 points are points i felt at different times when pple asked y i am not toking or keeping quiet.
i have tat situation many times. and all i do is, point 7 and 10 hahaha
and of at points like the above mentioned situation, sometimes, pple dun even know you are there.
hahahaha
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006
here i am listening to some jazz songs, chilling with the rain outside my window.
and my eye has to start to itch.
now i have decided to switch to latin music.
i so want to dance!
hahaa, and my fren is pushing me to take up either the korean guy for standard or ask zhixiang for latin so i can take part (or rather we) in the march competition!
hrm
hahaha in time for any dance is something which i am not sure. and i wonder if i can get a dress in time too.
then again, i still have to ask zhixiang for latin portion. if he isnt game for it, i will just try standard.
putting dance aside, my mind floats the idea of work and studies.
i am pretty torn, and wondered how much i can tolerate the idea of working.
besides having the $$$$ to buy wat i want and blahblah, there's nothing much of any satisfaction anyhow.
so much of putting on make up, perming hair (and now it is cha cha!) and wearing the clothes i always wanted.
then again, the image i wanted now, was wat i have dreamt of since young. not the kind of dream when i wanna have a prince charming by my side by 28 or some magical number, but i forsee myself doing things and being who.
that brings back to a point of "y does work make me feel so darn old while maybe i should go back to studies to feel youthful once again"
currently, nothing much to brag about for i need to focus, i need a mid term goal which translates to finding a dream.
i sit back here, thinking, what did i ever wanted to do?
ah, stuck
and i will tell u again.
my mum ever thot i wanted to be a professor?
hahaha.
me? phD seems way off.
but i do have a dream to fulfil
deal with the short term goal first!
anyhow, dreams like dancing and travelling never stop hahaha.
maybe i am a cacoon, waiting to fly.Labels: a 2006 christmas
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Saturday, December 23, 2006
i have got a hangover!
no i did not get drunk or watsoever, but i was having withdrawal syndrome.
i was back to work
it was a day i would call, "doze off in front of your laptop without your boss knowing it"
yeh, sounds very duh? hell yeah, but ignore me as i was just preparing myself to meet christina!!!
great time, we went random sushi and then random KTV and then random movie called "the holiday"
and that is the prupose of this whole post. i would like to do a short movie review.
again, i emphasise "short" as much as my hair is sitll drying.
i remembered watching a few movies back, the trailer called "the holiday" with the fabulously charming, extremely gorgeous, unbearably sexy jude law acting in it.
you must say i am really smitten by that guy in the show, thus i told myself, this christmas, lets watch a movie on romance.
ahh. tat brings back memories of "love, actually" and i proudly present you, my new found love.
the holiday was more concise, just toking about 2 girls and 2 boys. technically speaking, it started off on 2 girls, whose love life were screwed up.
1st warning. i am going to do the details of the movie. pple who would like to watch the movie, close this window right away.
iris, british, and god, i just love the accent! digressed alittle, was suffering from what i called, "love the bastard too much, till you lose yourself" illness.
she was being two-timed and then made used of by her ex and colleague, jasper. (greatm surprise tat i actually able to remember the characters' names!)they had this literature love. and i wonder if i have described it aptly.
amanda, amercian, and sheesh, at least her american accent doesnt sound TAT imitmidating, was this careerminded lady who owned her own movie trailer advertising firm, who has a bf who slept with his receptionist.
heart broken, they wanted a holiday. to run away from the pple, the place, and most imptly, the men they din want to see for christmas, for 2 weeks
at this point, i was sitting there, anticipating the movie. but i have to admit, there wasnt a single dull moment and christina agreed with me. it was better than eragon!
upon googling a holiday destination, amanda landed herself o nan exchange holiday website where she found iris.
sweet. impulsive as pushed by their broken hearts, they have decided to swap house the next day.
thus over the ocean, to the other side of the world, they found themselves in totally different worlds.
iris found herself in this huge and posh house down in sunset blvd while amanda was in this village cottage, cosy but small.
loneliness, set in at its peak. like a full blown disease, it bites.
they felt nowhere, lost, ALONE, away from their usual.
so much of reminding myself, running away aint solving the problem! it just makes matters worse.
then again, they were about to change their mind, they met the "interesting" or "special" one.
iris met miles who was attached to some kind of 3rd class actress, while amanda met the very sexy and gorgeous iris' brother, graham (and yeh, i am ALREADY IN LOVE WITH JUDE LAW BY NOW)
to cut the story short, i have decided to take out snippets which i felt that hit me.
1) amanda last cried when his dad left the house when she was 15. she never cried again.
2) graham actually has 2 kids. and nope he wasnt divorced but widowed. PLUS 10! and he is a cry baby!
3) iris was really trying to get herself out of her ex's clutch, bu that idiot/bastard, just kept on going at her even though he is already engaged. f*uk tat guy!
4) miles, being the not so good looking, but was a cool composer for movies.
with the major four points, i would like to say, love has worked its way round.
1) amanda and graham: graham din tell her about the kids. and they thot they could just get away with one nite stand. but graham had to fall in lvoe with amanda
esp after all the toking and understanding each other. by chance, she found out yet the kids were in love with her. maybe kids do sense special things, dun they?
at this point, amanda was leaving and they couldnt help but HAD to see each other, and yeh, on the bed. but the most beautiful point came right at this moment
graham professed his love for her
it is long d, dun forget the UK and the USA. they were comtemplating on the issues of tat and it wont work out, but graham just went "i love u, and it doesnt matter that much if you might buy 1 and get 2 free. and suddenly i knew wat i need and i know wat i exactly need is u."
those words, damn it, judelaw, god..take me!
digression, but yeh she was still leaving.
just after she was in the car, and for no particular, she atualyl teared
and she knew it. ran back to the hut and found graham weeping. haha.
it was terribly cute.
2) iris and miles: they are jsut wat i called, the humourous pair with non stop luffter!!! hahaha. in particular, arthur, the old man wa slike the string that tied them together.
it was easy for this story. predictable, yes, but never a dull moment.
i am getting sleepy and i am getting every short. hair is almost dried by now.
that i have discovered, i should just take a holiday alone out!
hahaha i might just find LOVE
but anyhow, underline meaning, never expect it.
you cant find it on purpose, it just have to let it flow.
and sometimes, just be yourself. and you will be loved.
i like this movie.
4.5 out of 5.
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Thursday, December 21, 2006
ahh...
took 2 days off straight but din feel TAT refreshed.
too much of late nites and lack of sleep
hrmm
2006 is indeed coming to an end.
somehow, i wonder how much i have learnt from it/
at this point, the only thing that hit me is, time flies too fast, i am living, fleetingly.
the time has thus come, for me to refocus and shift my priorities.
life, somewhat is larger than just work, or worrying not getting attached (on the contrary, looking ard me, i am worrying once again about my gal frens.) not worrying not spending enuff time with family, frens, urself.
i dunno. again, i am stuck here, thinking how to proceed with life.
and i will never forget how yewleong told me "till now, even a father of one, i never knew where my dream is"
i looked back all the years, i have moved on. i never went back to MGS to see my teachers, coz the only one who impacted my life has left us for home.
i havent have the heart to go back ACJC, knowing there's nothing much for me to see.
i never went back to nus to see those lecturers whom i actually remmebered.
but i revisit my frens, the pple who have direct contact with me, and i started to appreciate those who ACTUALLY cared and loved me
and now, i really know who they are.
no matter how much we are so busy with life, pple like Jo, Steph, chris, alwyn, eph never stop themselves from accepting who i am and love me.
i have new found frens (and yeh i do exclaim them as frens) like pohkhim, and maybe LL bro who actually made life alittle bearable at work.
besides tat, i dun think i have grown much. hahaha.
thouhg i know, i did my latin dance competition.
i wish i have something to EXCLAIM and SHOUT IN JOY and PRIDE that i have achieved something! but in this state of crankiness, i think, tat's not something which measures success.
i found kids enduring, cute ones, and no, i dun fancy having them soon.
i rather STAY SINGLE, than to die of forced companionship and no,
dun tell me i will chnage my mind when i am 30. leave that to TAT time.
i do want a change of working environment. it is pretty hard to survive under this guy who is err, having grudges abt me.
then again, i will hold on, till the next year end.
i will then report my whereabouts.
i am indeed a boring person.
i need to let loose
weirdly, i do run wild, act wild and dance wild if i allow myself.
=o)
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Sunday, December 10, 2006
i have come to a stage that all partying and chilling out with frens, even with pple u feel comfy with, is all nothing but a stand still.
i am tired!!
yeh
i am so going to take a few days off and chill.
away from home
but i wanna sleep
hahaha...but if i stay home, i have to deal with mum! but maybe
dealing with niece is a great thing!
i cant wait to stay home!!!!
i wanna watch my CSI!!!
hahaha
simple pleasures, i will enjoy!
and is there any1 gonna giving me a good shoulder rub?
that spot is really stiff. argh..getting very very unbearably painful!
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