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relacon and wat's next?   Tuesday, July 29, 2008   was talking about jo about some1 who din seem to appreciate what she had. and i realised she is that of age and she needed to be wakened up but seriously i dunno some pple just are like this but it shed some light into my thinking and no matter how old and how much u have gone through, sometimes, we just cant think straight at all i think blaming is fine but to the extend of constant accusation of something which is definitely, not its entirety belongs to others only. she has to bear some of e consequences whilst all along, every1 has to choice to choose. and ultimately she made her own choice. that is an definite undisputable fact. What i find it frustrating is, after all her complaints, she failed to see all these. it is not my problem, seriously. it is almost finding myself getting irrtated with myself when i complain over something for a period of time, intensively. i find myself very angsty and it kept me away from thinking logically and making the best decision. thats how i feel and irregardless of how the aftermath of the situation will be, she lacks the basic yet critical mind to self evaluate under the mircoscopic lens. maybe it hurts but thats how we grow. the sheer action of tearing oneself apart and piecing it back again is excruciating and painstakingly slow. i just guess or rather assume, if lamenting has becoming her character, it is only for her to lose out what is best for her (in my opinion, of course) and her lacking for self judgement. she is a highly defensive lady who bears no point to listen even to herself. she jumps to conclusions on things without constant reminder of what discerning is, within the realms of her controlled thinking, to believe or takes with a pinch of salt. i agree, completely and soulfully, that no one has that fortune to feel for the true, simple happiness of having love, being loved and thought of if one just goes for monetary and materialistical happiness. in pursuit of happiness, we tend to seek temporary comfort in things easily obtained. it is very inevitable for momentarily happiness swept as true happiness. i felt that and i felt so empty afterwhich. hence i realised what is deemed like necessity turns out to be just pure superficial pleasure. i rather be loved and cared for while i do the same for pple ard me. that brings alot of happiness because afterall, who are we if we never love and be loved. 1:55 AM | |